Friday, February 27, 2009 ♥
@ Friday, February 27, 2009
=(
SOBBING!!
Today, is currently the last day for this week. ooOOooooOo wee~
Yay for me because i got plenty of things to do for this two weeks.
Sec3 camp coming, right? Fuhhhh, can't wait and im still dilemma
about the class tee. Are they going to make or not? -.- sheeesssh..
camp camp camp, i wonder which class is going to be a winner ;D
Should be soon, going with parents or maybe Kila,Rajiv and Efah
to Bukit Merah tmrw :) Ok, now im fcuking tired bcos i just came
back from woodlands -.- and yeah, i reached damn early, at 5pm.
kay, BYE!
Yay for me because i got plenty of things to do for this two weeks.
Sec3 camp coming, right? Fuhhhh, can't wait and im still dilemma
about the class tee. Are they going to make or not? -.- sheeesssh..
camp camp camp, i wonder which class is going to be a winner ;D
Should be soon, going with parents or maybe Kila,Rajiv and Efah
to Bukit Merah tmrw :) Ok, now im fcuking tired bcos i just came
back from woodlands -.- and yeah, i reached damn early, at 5pm.
kay, BYE!
Thursday, February 26, 2009 ♥
@ Thursday, February 26, 2009
I could sit in this house
In this room, In this bed
Just as long as I’m feeling this way
And boy since you’ve been away
I cant sleep, I’ve been awake
I just lay here trying to deal with this pain
Four walls and no you (wow)
The silence in this room is so loud
No one else can fix it but you
Damn, it’s so hard to face
I lost you
Why’d I throw your heart away
Now I’m going down
Lke I’m on the ground
I lost you
I lost you (baby)
I’m sitting here wishing I could change the past
Knowing deep inside I can’t get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
Oh baby I just cant stand the way that I lost you
I’ve been trying
To put the pieces of a picture
Back together
But it just dont look the same
(I feel sick I need a medic) ‘Cause my heart’s stopped beating
And I feel like I’m slipping away
Four walls and no you (no you oh wow)
The silence in this room is so loud
No one else can fix it but you
Damn, it’s so hard to face
I lost you
why’d I throw your heart away
Now I’m going down
Like I’m on the ground
I lost you
I lost you
I’m sitting here wishing I could change the past
Knowing deep inside can’t get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
Oh baby I just cant stand the way that I lost you
And I don’t know how
I’m gonna make it
I’m going crazy
But maybe somehow
You can find your way
Find your way back to me
Damn, it's so hard to face
I lost you
why’d I throw your heart away
Now I’m going down
Like I’m on the ground
I lost you
I lost you
I’m sitting here wishing I could change the past
Knowing deep inside can’t get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
(and I cant stand the way) I just cant stand the way that I lost you
Damn, it's so hard to face
I lost you
Why’d I throw your heart away
Now I’m going down
Like I’m on the ground
I lost you
I lost you…
♥
@ Thursday, February 26, 2009
HaPPy 15TH BirTHdaY, LathIFaH
may your wishes be granted my dear :D oh, and dun be sad2 kaes!
CHEER UP BBE :) we are always be there for you.
may your wishes be granted my dear :D oh, and dun be sad2 kaes!
CHEER UP BBE :) we are always be there for you.
Dear Diary,
this is the very final. im still moving on no matter what happendss even
im not with him, no more. and in case you donch know, im not falling for
a new guy. it takes times to have a replacement cos u cant bare to forget
all the bitter sweet memories with ur recent ex who had stayed with you
almost 1year n 2months. please my friends, i know u guys said tat there
are many guys out there cume nak pancing ajek. no!!, i dun wanna chase
a guy. guys chase for a girl. i'll wait whos going to win my heart this time.
and kawan, i hope u understand that i still love yassin, only. fidi know tat
fidi tak boleh mengharapkan die sangat. well, im not but i just love him..
Indeed, i miss him a lot and wishing him to come back n changed to setia
pade satu&love. If im lucky, will he come back again??? I dun mind him
asking for patch. Im waiting, i will always! when u are ready to be in the
mood for r/s. If im unlucky, i wont have hym back. tears will keep falling
down from my eyes. whoever steal away his heart, u are the luckiest one.
A guy like him is hard to fine. Nice,Kind,Sweet,Funny,Romantic,Lovable
and more... he's not a bad person as u can see. he's wonderful :) to me.
Probly, he likes to sulk, sometimes ;D Will not forget all the memories :)
Thank You and Farewell my love,
Firdiana
You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
VIDEOS
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ♥
@ Wednesday, February 25, 2009
From the first day i saw, i thought you were mine and i were yours.
After months passed, u wanted freedom so much. I've granted your
wishes. Before that, i even sacrificed to squeeze my time just to see
u play for the finals. Eventhough we didn't get to hear our voice face
to face but yet, im happy to see you after months of not meeting. I
was hurt a lot when u said u were going to leave me. I was crying all
night long, fell sicked then. Not long enough, it was too late for you
to be yours again. Ive decided to go to our separate ways. Siti was
right. If you were the one for me, u would come back to me. N yes,
it ended you came back. 1year passed but till now, we're crumbling
and your were not mine and i were not yours, nomore :(
tobecontinued
♥
@ Wednesday, February 25, 2009
U guys should watch this [indonesia film]
Love showed us varieties of people to survive their love life . There’s 5 story,
story of an alzheimer teacher and a woman who care for him , story of a
family , story of 2 writers, the famous one and a writers who work in books
rental , story of two people who met at bus stop and story of a girl who want to
meet his friend in Jakarta .Different lives, different stories, sharing the same
affection. You may search the whole universe and never find anything more
beautiful than LOVE it is.
Love showed us varieties of people to survive their love life . There’s 5 story,
story of an alzheimer teacher and a woman who care for him , story of a
family , story of 2 writers, the famous one and a writers who work in books
rental , story of two people who met at bus stop and story of a girl who want to
meet his friend in Jakarta .Different lives, different stories, sharing the same
affection. You may search the whole universe and never find anything more
beautiful than LOVE it is.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 ♥
@ Tuesday, February 24, 2009
i seriously want my dream phone. im expecting to have it on my
birthday. hopefully my wish will be fully granted :) ohh plssss!!!!
OTHER THAN THAT,
With the name of god,
do he still sincerely love me? he has the feeling but i can't
feel it like i always do. its like nothing happend between us
anymore. as if we are like normal friends. only god knows.
Must i think the negative way or the positive? idk... fidi is
just sad. i need plenty of time. maybe im going to...............
lost contact with [fill in the blank]. Maybe, maybe not.
do he still sincerely love me? he has the feeling but i can't
feel it like i always do. its like nothing happend between us
anymore. as if we are like normal friends. only god knows.
Must i think the negative way or the positive? idk... fidi is
just sad. i need plenty of time. maybe im going to...............
lost contact with [fill in the blank]. Maybe, maybe not.
Sunday, February 22, 2009 ♥
@ Sunday, February 22, 2009
YESTERDAY,
meet Yassin for a while at bp. omfg[!], i totally cried when he say 'that'
particular sentence.
"I sayangkan eu tapi i taknak ade matair...."
"I love you but im not in the mood to have in any relantionship...."
sobxsobx!
Yet, we still love each other but we're not together. Understand? So,
we still move on and still counting our anniversaries :( I just have to
admit to my friends that we're no longer together but we still love each
other. thanks to Hanisah, Shakila, Rozita, Adeq Shasha, Junior&Idham
for cheering me up. And bby, thank you for wiping my tears :) sweet
of you.... You see, i can't bare to let you go bcos im toooo loving you!
So, yesterday was raining. Should be i must understand y its raining.
Lucky for me, ive reached bp before it starts raining heavily. Bought
a cheesy crab puff, pearly bandung soya milk&super soya milk :) bbyS
fav? lawlxxD and yeahh, kene kacau dari dua lelaki =.= NO WAY!!
then, meet with yassin at opp his block. I think im like a dead zombie
sitting down alone, a breeze wind. NO LIFE uh. Wahh, terkejut jap
when sunddenly someone pinched my cheeks. It was Yassin :) gaah..
Imhimlotxxx. XDXD!! then, lepak for like 2hrs and Yassin sent me till
Wdlands. Probly, im still depressed, feeling like killing myself, tsktsk -.-
Went home errrrr, 7pm. Study Geo, watched Bella, Lord of the Rings
and finally my parents are home! sheeshh, im blardy hungry yknow.
Dad probly finally get his dream monitor and bro gets his dream tv!!
shheeeeesssshhhhh... Dun wanna elaborate more. Im tired. BYE!
this was taken on wednesday
Friday, February 20, 2009 ♥
@ Friday, February 20, 2009
Farewell my 1year, 1month and 14days.
I'll love you and I'll wait for you as long as u want me too.
06 December 2007-20 February 2009
i feel like im sicked. I didnt had my lunch and dinner for almost
one day -.- Eversince we are not together, I feel like i dun exist
in the world!!!! I hope he'll see my cry tmrw when i get to meet
him. Its crumbling badly. I need Yassin by my side all day :((((
I still could not find the peace in my heart that I yearn for. Memories of the
past keep haunting me, especially during times when our love meant the most.
I see memories of us together in every little thing that I come across. Birthdays,
anniversaries, holidays, places, couples holding hands, lovers whispering sweet
nothings to and fro, are just some of the events that evoke strong feelings of
deja vu in me.
I will never forget nor will I be able to fully let go of these bittersweet memories.
It will always occupy a special place in my life. I am not angry with him, just
disappointed and sad. Meantime, I am always putting on a mask of happiness in
front of friends and family, so much so that I feel tired and pretentious. I still hurt
inside, but much less now than before, and I hope to learn to love & be loved again.
past keep haunting me, especially during times when our love meant the most.
I see memories of us together in every little thing that I come across. Birthdays,
anniversaries, holidays, places, couples holding hands, lovers whispering sweet
nothings to and fro, are just some of the events that evoke strong feelings of
deja vu in me.
I will never forget nor will I be able to fully let go of these bittersweet memories.
It will always occupy a special place in my life. I am not angry with him, just
disappointed and sad. Meantime, I am always putting on a mask of happiness in
front of friends and family, so much so that I feel tired and pretentious. I still hurt
inside, but much less now than before, and I hope to learn to love & be loved again.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 ♥
@ Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Today :D
School as pernormal. First period, we had Maths. Currently, Miss Saw
went through all the revisions we've been studying for the past nearly
2months?Im sure we're are still struggling to memorised the formulae
and more. Then, we had Geography. Did revisions too. An opened book
test also. Eventhough Geography is not the best, no matter what, we
have to study for our own good. Okay, skip. Then had Social Studies :)
Teacher taught us about formating for the SBQ :) At 11am, had a recess
till 11.30am then continue with our lessons English and Cme. Nothing
much happend but its just that Mdm Siti is absent for Cme so, there is
a relief teacher. Not bad the teacher, quite fun :D
Geography : (to be confirmed)
Social Studies : SBQ Picture a&b due by Friday 20Feb09
Sunday, February 15, 2009 ♥
@ Sunday, February 15, 2009
HELLO EARTHLINGS ;D
ohhhhhhhhhh man, tmrws school[!] 60+30=90min of Maths and English!!
OHMEGOSH -.- Maths? Totally scared of Miss Saw, lawlx. Kay, whatever.
So, probably im now wishing that mum or dad would agree on buying the
Nike duffle bag at Sports Elements :) Nyahaha[!] Ohh, please come true....
And yeahhh, can't wait for Sec 3 camp which is held at Pulau Ubin uhkiess.
Sort of scared bout the Night Walk thingy? (pray hard) Kayaking? idklah..
Eversince principal has changed, the plan of going to MY has changed too?
blardy not fair uh seyh! nOOb. Kay, talking lame shit again. Have not done
my hmwk -.- sheesshh and YAY for him[?] bro bought an Xbox360? -.-
OKAY BYE!
Thursday, February 12, 2009 ♥
@ Thursday, February 12, 2009
Today,
School was fine though but my edusave is less than the amount of
the price to Sarawak. HOW??!!! OuHhhmEeeGosHHhhh!!!!!!!!! -.-
I wanna go to Sarawak seyh! hmpft but hopefully it'll cut down the
pay to be more cheaper :)
SKIP~
Just finished creating a class blog so do Mel. Cant give you
the url now since its a COMPETITION! Shit kan??!! hopefully we
will win :) 2 hours of doing it!!! -.- haishhhh and yeahhh, bby has
not been contacting with me almost 2days :( sobbing. But, tmrw
he will come back from his camp! YAY!! i miss him blardy lots eu
know! :(( been sobbing in chem class on Wed. Thanx ehk korang,
for cheering me up. KORANG GEWEK!!! ;) Had Total Defence
Day in advanced. Quite okay larh.... Then, took cab bcos of MEL!
nyahhahaha, nvm. Bought ....... blablabla .......
IMISSMY ONE&ONLY YASSIN :(
ku tak mengapa tiada kamu disisiku untuk selama-lama pun
asalkan ku bahagia dengan teman2 karibku dan tidak berbual
'SIAL' belakang mereka.
~COSEUSUCK[!]
Sunday, February 8, 2009 ♥
@ Sunday, February 08, 2009
Saturday, February 7th
So, yesterday went to Mark's birthday at East Coast, rent a
bicycle and yeah, i lost my ez-link. Sheesshh -.- all the way
duit tambang (cents). Ouh, i hope somebody will give it back.
And thanks to Mardhiah for helping me to search all the way.
Thanx bbe :) two times searching for it, still not found but,
made a report already. Sobbing[!] So, at around 5.30pm g2,
meet up with Acin, Elias, Wafiq and more at Vivo. Sumpah
ngan ngantok giler, nyahaha. Random uh[!] So, went for a
walk, slack and at around 8.45pm, Acin and Wafiq sent me
till the mrt :) Reached home around 9.40pm. And sleep! :D
->DENGAR DENGAR, DIANA TIDO MATI per! -.- LOL
Today, February 8th
Nothing much happend. But im super superb sad when his
final answer breaks my heart. He left me, again becos of me [!][!]
.......................... (skip)
"I made up my mind and i wont regret, its my fault. I break
my promise again. Ok, just keep all the memory and continue
with life kay. Iloveubby. After everything, we laugh, we cried
But it all have to end. Kirim salam all Ping Yians and goodbye.
And wtv it is, remember what u say tat day, we will remain
as bestfriend. Takecare."
......................... (skip)
"Sorry b, its my final decision, yes i love, but i have to. Sorry"
BUT!
to be continued. Nak gi MeGA COUrtS :(
Friday, February 6, 2009 ♥
@ Friday, February 06, 2009
BBY, HAPPY 1YEAR&1MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
will always love you dearest :)
will always love you dearest :)
Thursday, February 5, 2009 ♥
@ Thursday, February 05, 2009
SoYESTERDAY, 4 February 2009 Wednesday.
Ouhhh, wonderful month i had during January. Well, not really but
i hope my friends had a splendid time. I swear Mrs Toh is supporting
giler babx (!) so do 312, loves lots yaw! hee~ 312 gerek all the way!!
So yeahh, yesterday had Cross Country. Chicken lah, didn't get into
the competitive run since there's like only one B-girls running -.-
Nvm.. lagipun, Fidi malas nak lari :))) ouh but overall, We won the
cheer and we won the cross country too !!!! WooHooo!!!! Go Alpine!
Probly, it ends at 11.30 but then, celebrated somebody's birthday,
Mark, Is, Syaiful and Divithra's advanced/belated bdae. Had fun,
actually. Took&vid pictures :) Most is with my friends camera kay.
Do have a memorial feelings, 312 :) Ouh then, went to QSS shopping
mall together with Ragiv, Is, Afa and Nazhan. Ouhmegosh, im all
alone but luckily i knew them since sec 1/2/3 :) Yeahhh, they didnt
know where to go there and since im going Queensway too, why not
i bring there but time was like 1pm? EARLY siot & yet, Yassin has
not finished school yet -.- Thanx ehkk u guys for ajak-ing me go
QSS shopping mall along since its too early ;D LOL. Walk walk wit
them at there. And when its already 2pm, gonna go bfS school to
mit up wit him, HAPPY HAPPY!! :D Yay but, im confused hpw to
go there. BLUR SOTONG seyh Fidi ni. Ouhhh, asked Qiss the bus
number. Board 195 then. Sumpah ngantok gile. Not becos of late bt
im just tired :( but happy, dapat jumpe boyfieku! YAY!!! Reached
there, met bf then followed by Qiss, Faj and so on kay. Gahhhh, bf
kesian, kaki luke useyhk :(sobbing. Slack at the library, met Louie
yaw! nyahaha. Smile :D After min, decided to go BP. Cam biasa,
slack lurh. haisshhh, since b got takraw training at Jalan Bahar, he
went home and changed then sent me till Woodlands along with
Idham :) met a lot of friends yesterday. Ouh, bb bau wangi (!)**
VIDEO
and yes my dearest, tmrw is actually my/their
HAPPY 1YEAR&1MONTH ANNIVERSARY, Fidi&Yassin
and HAPPY 2YEARS ANNIVERSARY to SITI&HEIKAL
Sunday, February 1, 2009 ♥
@ Sunday, February 01, 2009
ku akan tetap sayang mereka :) more to go
ily, hotboyfie :) and thanx for being with me almost
1year and 1month bby. Lots of love ♥
GTG, nak p LOT 1 now =)
1year and 1month bby. Lots of love ♥
GTG, nak p LOT 1 now =)
