Currently listening to Only Girl by Rihanna :) boom! i miss those moments. You know what i wished? I wished I never knew him from the very start. I shouldnt have loved him from the very first beginning. Anw, its gonna be almost a month im forgetting him. Why bother i bring back those stories. Oh lucky that i didnt PROMISE anything. Okay, thats mean of me. Boohoo, thats life. No revenge , nothing. Grown up, why fight when its already OVER? Officially gone, BAMMM!

Anw, school is starting in 7 more days. Its unbelievable to say this but i miss school and friends but about the studying part, i think i forgot everything, shit O.O Heee, ok, i still havent buy school buys. -.- HAHHA, just bought school uniform with pocket, IM HAPPY, you know why? because i can stuff or throw my coins inside the pocket, like primary school days. Other than that. this week will be the final week of holiday! HUHU and i havent find a tutor yet. boohooo.

Okay, tmrw got my pay already, insyallah :) hehe. Then meeting Naddbby at inter and off to Bugis Street to shop shop. Listed all the things. And meeting Fiqqy , a good friend of mine to watch a movie. I hope tmrw, and wednesday will NOT rain, amin! :') and on wed, photoshoot. Photographer: Khairil :) hahhaa , awesomee!

Heeeyyyoooo dudes and babes. Im waiting for the time to strike 4.30pm. Going out to eat and meet Shakila and her cousin at Somerset. Ive been going central for like IDK how many times i went but i know its a confirm next week will be my last and then focusing on O's, huhuu. Wish me a good luck and wishing the rest good luck too. Its like unbelieveable but u gotto believe me. Im gonna miss Zee, Kila and Efah plus the rest badly :( i almost cried yesterday telling zee that without you guys, i wonder who i can go to and lend a shoulder to cry on. Seeing them every morning at Level 2, I know i always scared them with my long hair , standing at the stairs, gossips here and there. Can you imagine they wont be there , doing the same thing? :'(( its very heavy to leave them but i hope we will keep our ties stronger.


Yesterday, i went out alone to Botanic Garden. I swear that place is beautiful :) will post the picture tmrw alright? Then at 6, waited for Nazirah and Taufiq. So, we went to Far East and took bus 7 home. Crapssss with my friends. Hahhhaaa..

Finally i have this feeling of blogging. See that number below the music player? It has been reset. Thanks to those who has been visiting and reading my blog :) Somehow, i wont get to update a lot like how i used too because i have been going out almost every single day with my friends, its been fun but my cash flew away easily. Just waiting for my pay this Tuesday. Been wanting to go USS with friends. Okay back, next year, i cannot say that i will not switch on lappy but it will be lesser this time. Focusing on my O'Level next year. ONE MORE YEAR TO GO, *praying*

Sister asked me to set my goals, and i threw away what i have been wanting, Fashion Apparel :( Still having a heavy heart to leave Design but i changed my mind and decide to go Business, any course will do IF i get into Poly (insyallah, amin) im not being too over but this is an inspiration, when you have one, go for it. "Nothing is impossible if you just believe."



I have been going to town for these few days & im happy with it. Still got the swag eventhough im single but i will still shine no matter what :) Life HAS TO MOVE ON. Im not morosed now thinking about my ex infact, im very happy with family and friends around me to cheer me up. Just have to occupy my time with happiness. Im not into RS yet, at this point of time. I had enough of heartbreaks. I do have feelings for him back but, let just make this clear, we both are friends, and i should be thankful to have him who understands other people. He is a nice guy, really. I known him a year? should be but then we lost contact for a few months. We are cool, friends :')




i wished damnn :(


this video is meaningful :)

Had fun , really fun with close friends Fiqqy, Hanisah and Nazirah. They made my day. Okay, i have to make this short as i have to wake up super duper early tmrw. Damn. Goodbye.

OH ME GAWD, hahha, my stomach is grumbling , boohoooo but its sweet of mum to make a sandwich for me , sis and bro. LOL Anw, yesterday was fun, i did have this energy of working, laughing with my friends. No tears. Even if i want to ALMOST cry inside the train, i manage to get over it within 10 seconds.

Ohyeahh, and i found this song very the meaningful. without the 'sex thing'

Thank you to all friends that really cheered me up. You know what makes me wanna weep more? Is when reading all the motivational posts that my friends gave it to me at facebook. It makes me more sad but then stronger than before because i know they cared. Somehow, i am still depressed about what happend yesterday night. I didnt expect that we would end this fast. But i sacrificed for him so that he can fulfill his wishes. His gone and She is so LUCKY, very. Im gone for good bby. Only memories are left. Cried me a river.. I cried so badly yesterday night. I could not sleep well , thinking why must we end.... I cannot force you to stay with me. Oh how i wish.. I have planned an outing on our first monthsary but everything went downhill. We are just not fated . AND a word Sorry is just not enough.

Its natural to get heartbroken in RS but your my love at first sight. Sanggup tinggalkan aku ='(((( im soooo freaking sadddd. I fcuking love youuuu but this is what i get in return... ='((((
I regretted , a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt... Am i sooo worthless to you? Im different from her,YES , totally. the way we love you is DIFFERENT. But u cant expect every girl you are with have the same PERSONALITY. Maybe she is the ONLY GIRL. U make me feel like a loser and people are laughing at me. Oh no, they are not laughing at me but they pull me back so that i can stand up again rather than seeing me fall to the ground everytime i got a heartbreak. But, Thanks for everything. Im gone.

INCONSOLABLE

I am feeling so down since the last three days. All i can is just fake a smile everyday because one day i will get use to it, so sad. Blardy fcuking sad. Guess its like my depression mood is back. Hi depression , you suck -.- Im trying to chill myself. Going somewhere today and weep!!!! DAMN IT. Started so good but why, whyyyy must there will always be something that blocks our way???? Wondering. If only i can kill myself without any sins, i would have done that long ago.

AHHH, ok anyway.. Ive been working working working from 2pm till 11pm. Had lunch yesterday, LIKE ALONE -.- how pathetic is that. Work alone, Eat alone :( SUCKS. I almost cried infront of the customers. I feel so retarded but the rest made me smile :') but another thing why im sad is because... the blood clot :'((





Okay, i think i should better go now. Meeting someone later.

Worked yesterday. Freaking exhausted -.- and the work is very boring. U know what? Robinsons is still the best. Nothing can replace RBS. RBS got the swag yo. The thing is, RBS is well prepared but JL is not. *Crying here* 7 more days to work and 15 more days to result :O ohh meee god!!! Then after that, im not working, NO MORE but pay will come on the 28th and going Malaysia JB, after the day i take my results. WALAUWEY! confirm i will not be in a holiday mood. I just hope that i pass and qualify to go sec five if not, someone will kill me, does not matter blood or not :O !! And yeah, i make a lot of new friends there. But then, its kindda..
RACIST. Tsktsk. As in, there are only a small portion of Malay. But friends there i met, were all niceeeee :)

Okay, wanna shower soon. Today will be the next tiring day. DAMN. I just cannot wait for morning walk with musketeers next week. Mount Faber and Sentosa :D And will receive FILA shoes tmrw/Sunday. AWWWWW ^^


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