I cannot give up. I am fighting hard enough inside me to have just ONE, not two. After reading the symptoms, i feel like weeping ='(( its true but i have to control.

OMG! got tuition later -.- tsktsk. Final week of school and next week, N'Level heats! O.O Friday half day. Studying at somewhere and at the same time, fresh air ^^


Signing out, firdiana xoxo

1 more week to N'Level ='( im scared.

"It's beautiful when you are looking through ROSE COLOURED GLASSES :) "
rose coloured glasses means you see the world pleasant and vibrant eventhough you know the world is not right but when you take those RCG off, you will see lies behind.

I found this song creative and nice :) firstly, i thought this song was like some no sense at all but when i read the lyrics, it was meaningful. Its between her and her bf. They were in a long RS. After they brokeup, their friends ask her to get back together with him but then, she refused. Her friends just know the lies but she know the truth. You see that? And RCG is not like other glasses like Rayban or whatever. It is a glass that when you put it on, everything POPS! you will see beautiful things around you :) You will see the world colourful when the truth is , there's lies everywhere and the world isn't that perfect. Oh i wish i have the RCG. Whenever i am feeling morose, i can put it on so that i will not feel sad but damn, too bad, i don't have it.

I hope someone knows that i am missing him a lot :'(

Blissful six hundred :)

Holla peoples. Didn't attend school today and i even have the intention to turn on the lappy :) what more can i say, it is dull here. Dead -.- Having a very bad headache since yesterday during physical edu. My whole body starts to cramp. I couldn't walk properly after i woke up. This is sickening -.- i miss my friends in school :( awwww. I'll meet you guys tmrw :) Ohya, not fogetting,

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SISTER and BLISSFUL 24th YEARS ANNIVERSARY!

Well, she is twenty now :) grown up. LOL. Final year in TP, good for her. I'm still struggling for N'level, sheesh. Happy 24th Years Anniversary to my parents , heee. Will be going out later in the afternoon for lunch with family eventhough my body hurts a lot.. Sobbing ='( but i'll have fun, hopefully.


Someone says this to me during D&T lesson: Natural is Beauty =') Why i never i thought of that? Its true. Even if i were to have x1000kg eye bag, natural is still the beauty. Not only from the outside but also from the inside. That's more important. If a true guy really loves you, he will accept just the way you are. Whether you're gorgeous or ugly. All he is looking for is the beautiful heart :) he will love you for that if he is true.

Three more posts to 600 :) Ohh yaaaayyy! Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims :D
Have fun alright. The parents have to give money but the children $$ kachinggg. Uh, me lame.
Im sick, thats why i talk crap. I woke up just now and i couldn't open my left eye and i realised that its swollen. Ape orang cakap... ermmm, "Dalam panas" Ahhh, yeahh. Having flu and sore throat. Tears from my left eye keep falling -.- wow. I feel so sleepy.

Just wait and see what will happend tmrw, if it really happends. Im gonna let go one of my precious. I think i'm going to cry ='( sobb.

So, yesterday went to auntie's house at Bedok Reservoir. I thought i saw a friend of mine but nahhhh, it was not. Huaakkk.. Then to neneks house :) It was awesomeee with cousins :D

Currently studying peribahasa with mum. She helped me a lot in understanding :)
Good Luck for N'Levels beautiful peoples :)

I am not a fully good girl. Everyone is not :) I did noob stuffs when i was 13. I pierced my second hole at my ear during Hari Raya which makes Ibu shocked after seeing it. I pierced my nose at the right when i was 14. Mum said that i look like an Indian -.- It was pain and my nose was swollen. I have to take care of it. I always get scolded of using a nose stick during school. I always get caught about being too vain during my 2007. I used silky girl makeup before going to school. I used black mascara and more. Freaking vain at that time. And lastly during my lower sec, I look like a one disturbing minahrep -,-

After i stepped 15, my life changed. I restrained from using makeup and applied baby johnson powder before going to school. I decided to close my nose hole eventhough its tough for me. I still keep my second ear hole. My ex changed me a lot and turned over a new leave. He pulled me from being a one minah skinny. Be casual, normal.

I lost a lot of blood when i was 13. Maybe , just maybe the reason why im lack of red blood cells ='( i was despaired. It was unexpected when i had an accident which deeply cut my elbow. It was just 3cm but deep cut. Blood drips after a drip. Pailed face. Sent to the hospital for stitching. Half of my uniform was fulled of blood. People stared. Tragic moment ='( thats why im lack of red blood cells. So, get it? Traumatised during 15years old because of depression problem. I've caused a lot of problem. // Fell from the swing suddenly 4times. Had a second deep cut at my leg when i was a kid. Choked a full mentos which almost killed me when i was just a Primary 1?



Well, this is life. Take care.
ilovebf.

why am i feeling so sad? ='(( i just wanna be happy. but my heart feels, there is something wrong.

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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