okay, im back. in the morning, went to Geylang and ate at Hajjah Maimunah with
parents and grandma:)hehee misses! then sent nenek home and went to take my
blood test which was soooo blardy painful!! buy yeahh, there's this one nurse who
is very amiable, came into the room and held my hand while i held her hand sooo
tightly cos its veryveryvery pain when the needle started poking underneath my
elbow. Sheeshh. I didnt cry but i ignore the pain. It took like 5min to end the test.
The nurse ask me to breathe in and out slowly and i did :) it went well but when i
stand up, blackout a little and feeling very feeble.

Thanks to the doctor and nurse. Mum was inside the room with me actually. Ok,
went out like some blur sotong. After few minutes, the giddy-ness go away. A lilb
only. Next thursday my result and maybe will be going for Xray. Haiyaaa.. Then,
went to Century to take my VANS home with me! Happy peerr siaa! ;DD kening
naikk oiii!! hahaaa.. reached home, sis says "Somebody is happy noww =.=" yeah
ahahhaaa, MESTILAH happy.. beh dari orang tu nanti gi KL, confirm happy!=.=
lol. Anw, i miss loveeeeeeee so muchh and also, i misss SHAF mannn. sheeeesssh

okay, im back with tears along. Stupid asshole. VANS shoes makes me cry.. Mum
nag like there's no other days gitu. But, i dun give a damn cos im bringing it home
tomorrow!! noob. Huahahhaahaaa..

Okay, its currently 12.26am and im still not asleep cos i wont sleep till i get the
VANS shoes. Mum promised that but how could she break that promise? Wth!
Besokkkk!! tetap besokkk!! its like not like forever im not going to pay her gitu
Sheeshhhh... Waiting for $$ to come. Anw, received the prize at JBS yesterday
night. Paiseyhh, Orang semua tengok. Lol. It was having a match TR vs SAF :)
When they announced Sengkang Punggol, i shouted like whuttt!! hahaa..

Received a medal? yeahhh. Champion weyy!! :) lol. And cheque, later. Kaching!
Was damn damn tired. So, after watching the match, tompang coach new car &
off to Rochor, to eat. Yummyyy but kenyang. lalalaa. Me and Shaf crap at dere.
Bahhh and then, went home together with Shaf, Rozita, Karri, Era, Demi :) heh!
Today was funn. But didnt have a very good mood.. BCos i feel like banging my
head against the wall. Well, i did after i got home :( Tears keep falling and i was
soo fcuking stress. I bang the wardrobe, i bang the mirror hardly. Urrghhhh!

im not crazy but im stress. but lucky, i dont intend to take out the scissors from
sis wardrobe and poke myself deeply. Scaryy huhh. I can do that anytime i wan
if someone really make me sooo blardy STRESS! beware.

So, tmrw? maybe early in the morning will take blood test around 9.30am! since
just now tak jadi cos must have a parent. Maklumlah takot Fidi pengsan halfway
lmao. And yeahh, just now, get my report book back!! :D Not that satisfied. But i
passed and promoted to Sec4Na next year:) omg, thank god. But didnt did great
like last two years. Dead mann. But still pass:) Gonna enjoy the holidaes!

In loving Memories of Bernard Tay :(
i know im slow bt it doesnt mean i didnt care. its true im nt ever close2him bt
i know because i still remember his face and final shook his hand after d game
against MiddleRangers. It was very morose to hear it after reading FAS news
yeahhh... I just want to say that may he always be happy up there. Im sureee
that BA can cope well for the future challenges.

so, tears really fell. ohkay. tomorrow night gonna go Jalan Besar Stadium to
collect prize. huhuu. But before that, im going clinic. All the best.

and i miss (_fill in the blanks_)

what love means

I love you’ means that
I accept you for the person you are
and that I don’t wish to change you into someone else
it means that I care enough to fight for what we have
and that i love you enough not to let you go


Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me


tomorrow gonna get the report book. chickennn! will be sooo blardy scared! =.=
tsk tskkk. all the best! hopefully to get promoted to sec4-12Na next year. Okay.
im gone.




KALAU KO PENGECUT! gi lari dari hidup aku sudahhh! takyaaa nk
layan akuu. CB uhhh

after samba music :)








Second day of mens was darn agony. Yesterday was my first day i mean that night
till i found out =.= sheesshh. Ok, have to bare with it cos im not gonna eat the pink
pills just to make it all right:) Couldn't pray somemore. Huhuu.. Okay, stop it. Anw,

Eating at Swensens was yummy mannn. It includes that i had my breakfast at there:)
We went to Plaza Singapura's Swens and yes, it was raining when were on the bus. Sat
with Shaza Nazurah, kecohness girl in the class. Lol. Shafirah, Isma, Mardhiah and all,
couldn't make it as they got what leadership thingy in school. Omfg!! They just missed
the fun. So, there is a must to sit with opp sex and yeahh, i chose Felix to be my soooo
called 'date'? hahaaa.. Fake lahh=) Dining Entiquette was super the gerekk! Especially
the trainer was like making fun and all.

Ate Soup first followed by Chicken Chips? wth and the ice creammm. Wahh liaooo! =D
Thumbs Up! hahaa. Soup and Ice cream is the best. If only someone would treat me d
ice cream, hah, fat hope eyhh. Ok, i had enough. Hoping to have good results in 2more
days. Omg, scaryyy! =.= Report book time.

two more days to results
two more days taking VANSbby home with me
and two more days to, idk? private hospital/clinic?
umm, im blank. ok, bye.

imissyouuuuuu,love.
imissyou everyday,
imissyou every hour
imissyou every minute
imissyou every seconds

imissyou like i never missed someone else.

VIDEOS during SAMBA MUSIC



VIDEOS during FRIENDSHIP OUTING
Isma VS Vivien




Fidi VS Kila VS Irah VS Min VS Shaza

Yesterday was aweeessomeee and funn outing with all the beautiful peoples who
was there during the picnic:) There was me, Shafirah, Shaza, Min, Shakila, Zeze, Hawa, Efah, Afa, Isma, Rajiv, Nivien, Heikal. 13 peoples bt yet, an awesomeness!

Okay, me and Shafirah intended to meet the rest at Pasir Ris Park as we will be
late but then, guess what? They were still at Bedok Inter waiting for the boys ::
lawl. Go pump bola at Sportslink which cost that blardy one dollar?? wtf! Mahal
pahhh. Nvm, so, its just me and half of the group went to PRP first. Makkkk aii,
punye tak panas. Suntan weyy. Pfftt, get ready all the food, and finally, the rest
include Birthday Girl, Hawa :) hehe.. Did played games and soccer. Got the vids
I'll upload it asap okay?

Ate all, crap random stuffs. Isma & Nivien was playing the so called 'Uno Stacko'
Chill, Stress faces growing but still, Isma kalah so does Shaza!! :D Played soccer
in the sand? wth, sakettt pahhh! my leg now still got bruises =.= tskk tskk!! Did
some juggling with Shaza, Shafirah and our 'coach', Rajiv. Lol!! Funn maot. After
all the great happenings, we go home. Pictures at facebook (Firdiana Asnan) ok?
Search for it, add me and view it:)

Todays school was okay for me. Was really tired till i nearly fell asleep. Lalalaaa.
Archery was great so does Samba Music. Got the videos for Samba Music. okay,
im done now, tired. Byebye and imissyouloveee.

dua kali candid but nice eyhh.credits.


i think i had fun?! lol but didn't get to shop like i used to that day which i bought
cotton on and split shirts. wahhh.. but today? nahhh. Just me and parents went
to Afghan around 2pm then locomoted to Century and ate at Food Culture. Hah
and to supermarket for tmrw's outing. Jyeahhh!!

Ok, im blardy bored now. My finals is that im taking VANS home on this Friday.
Like YAYYYYY!!!!! wahahhaa. Dream shoe. And tomorrow hopefully will be the
memoriable First Secondary Three Friendship Outing:) awwhhh. Cherubic eyhs
but i think, my hotstuff crush is more cherubic. hahahhahhahhahhaha!! betol2:)

Talking about my very hawt stuff crush, im soooo missing him and loving him d
muchh yawww. Holiday nak datang, harap2 dapat jumpe eyhhh. huhu.

Anw, tomorrow is SITI HAWA'S BIRTHDAYYY!! wahhhseyhh, Fifteen nampak
lmao. Hahaaaa. Habis uhh, Tuesday kene rabakkk. Cheyyy.

just now i had fun with friends playing soccer but now,, my mood turns to be
morose and mad. i didn't wish this would happend to me!! if only time would
turn back to my childhood when i still had my missing best friend:( and i just
wish that i wouldnt live in this world after choking a full mentos in my throat
when i was small. but god let me live. thankyou but tis isnt the way i wanted

i feel so low nowadays. i need a backbone to support me. my friends will be:)
if only i had a 16year old brother, i would stick to him like a glue. My sister is
out with her bf? i think. Omg, im envy to see them being together for 5years
pluss. Imagine that. From the age 14 to the age 19. Kekal kann? huhu. Have
to endure and think positive. Finding a right guy is hard :( I dont look or flirt
with guys for your info. I just wait. Some guys did the 'heyyyy, you look hott'
sound, yknoww yeah.. I don't entertain forgawdsake. Pikir aku mcm nyonya
uhhh.. sheeshhh =.=

what type of guys i like:
SINCERE&DEPENDABLE
True Love.
Sweet talking.
Be good to me.
Dont treat me like a piece of shit.
Im not invisible eyhh.
Aint a matrep.
Good looking (depends)

sincere and dependable is what im looking for. kau main perasaan akuu,
you can go fcukkk the entire world. i dont entertain noob guys:x!! once i
ignore you, byebyee then. because i believe in karma. what goes around,
comes around. The pain the that ive go through is the pain that you'll go
through in your life, ass. Superstitious for you? run bby run... I dun give
a damn.

HAPPY FOURTEEN BIRTHDAY LOUIEEEE!!! ;D
sorry that i didn't make it to your yesterdays advanced birthday outing to go
swimming as i told you the reason:) but i hope you had an awesome birthday
outing with your friends! Jyeahhhh!! and may your wishes be granted yeah:)
Miss You Damnn Muchh! Hangout Soon ayee.


Anw, this will be the plan for holidaes. Cheyyy. But the dates, not confirmed.

-Pasir Ris Park
-Escape Theme Park
-Wild Wild Wet with Shafirah and her mum
-Ice Skating at Kallang Leisure Park
-Sentosa Outing
-Sentosa Luge&Skyride
-Marina Barrage
-312s Outing, bbQ hopefully
-Swimming at Jurong or Sengkang
-Mitup with Primary School Friends
-Futsal, The Cage, one day

okay, im done. but i'll be feeble for next week from 31st to 2November:(
and im wanting to go out with him sey :((( i hope one of the plan will be it.

Upcoming Birthday's

Louie's Birthday, Today
Elias Birthday, 25th October
Siti Hawa's Birthday, 26th October
Acin's Birthday, 30th October
Feesah's Birthday, 2nd November
............
............

okay, today was dead boring in school =.= can die. watched video, had exams papers
back. neutral? i think i did bad. i was hoping more on combined science and dnt to be
a pass in the report book (maths too) okay, enough. just now, watched video. rewind
those memories that we've go through as a 312:] can cry, huhuu sobbing. wasn't in a
good mood that morning. kept quite in the class like silent hill. was kindda sad yeahh

after school, slack with shafirah, nadzirah and afanazrulshah at the canteen, yeahhh,
fun i can sayy. lawl. and of course, cant wait for a special outing ^^ kening naik wey!




and i really really miss him a lot













fcukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn, im sooo
fuckingg pissed and sooo fcuking stressss nowadays!!!
if only i can run away now... ppft... this feelings sucks!
i wannaaaa kill myselfffff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im dead meat now. my head really hurts like a piece of shit. my vein keeps squeezing inside my
brain.think im gonna be sick pretty soon enough *crying* huhuu. ok, gonna have rest. but still,
im farking pissed off. im not a good mood today. anytime i can shout. sheeshh

keep thinking to myself when can i have my happiness back again? i miss my
smile that i always have and a sense of humour. i was doing fine just after my
traumatized thing has ended but it seems its coming back sooner=( I have to
faced all of this but its too much. I had enough:( Its not worth it. I'm trying to
be stronger and pretend theres nothing affecting my life deplorable but how??
Yknoww i need your support? It came crumbling downnn.. I feel like raising up
my hand and surrender bt not now this is the challenge that i have to go through
eventhough i said i had enough. I'm taking it till i drop it.


the pain that i go through is the pain that you'll go through.

I think that I love him more than life itself
I know that I’ll never find nothing close to him
Never going to stop
I’ll love him till I drop
Ain’t never going to let him go
He drives me so crazy
I so love my baby
The way he be making me feel

I know you think I’m dead wrong
Some of the shit that be going on
But are you going to stop my heart
From falling in love

Doesn't everybody wanna fall in love?
Doesn't everybody wanna need someone?
Remember when you told me
That you didn't have no one
You would’ve given anything to have someone
So don’t hate on my ‘cause

He’s so good to me
He’s so sweet to me
I know that you don’t think I know I’m in love
But doesn't everyone wanna fall in love
Fall in love

today was a blastttt!! it ended up me, shafirah and mardy went for cycling at ecp.
but some parts where we coincidence-ly metup with the boys, Firdaus and gang:)
We cycled almost two hours including camwhoring and blablabla. Funn eyhh. lawl

Pancit weyy. Stamina cockup seyh. Ni lah case dah lamer takde training but now,
okay lahh. Stamina's back:) Its been a while since i last stepped ecp :( huhu, sadd
huhh. But before we headed to ecp, went Tampines, to confirm with the VANS$
Sumpah, i was at there, blur sotong. But okay larhh 95bucks. Its reserved for me
already yawww. Next week ambik:D happy weyy. Take a chill pill, its my money
but lend bro's money first. hahahaaa. next week baru bayar abang ^^! and mum
agreed. nyahahhaha.

anw, most pictures with Shafbby. And pictures have been uploaded at facebook.
Go see it okay. Search for Noor Firdiana. And add me to those who have not =D



Ohhhh, i love himmmmm. hanye die di hatiku:)

long ago picture :]

called someone really special today and it makes my heart beat fast. damnn.
eventhough it was just a while, he missed my voice. awwwhhh. lol. got some
part funny, ade some part sarca sikit so, yeahh, like that lahh. boring kannn
berbual ngan i, hahahaaa.. :D but still, u miss my voice. lalalaaa.

okay, tmrw east coast, cant wait yawww. mardy!! wakeup liaooo. sleep only.
hahahaaa. okay, im off now. tired weeyyy!!! hopefully chicken also tag along
tmrw :] Shikin luhh.. (the girl whom u threw ice at her =.= sheeshh)

and forgawdsake, i really love him so muchhh. willing to call me again? hahh

Maths Paper One was okay. And yes, today is the end of end of year paper:)
312 was having the feeling I CANT WAIT like that cos i still can hear gasping
behind when the paper was going to end in two minutes. lol. Anw, me & Shaf
after school dating berdua-an sahaja. Cheyy, kawan nye outing lahh. Decided
to go Tm only. Window shopping at there. Bought cotton on shirt and momss
umbrella. laugh. And we did buy BEST BUDS kechain for both of us:] sweett
ritee?! Saw butterfly. Swear if anyone buys for me the butterfly necklace, i'll
hug that person till i won't let it gooo. Serious. hahaa

So, me and Shaf bought the same same Ripples slipper :D lol. Thanks to her!!!
Was actually thinking of buying the red nike slipper but plan changed and ass!
Yknowww whuttt!!??!!! I saw this blardy nice VANS shoes which attracts me
Wahhhh siowww eyhh!! It looks something like this (below) // Shaf knew wat
i was looking for.

Me:"Shaff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ko ade nampak bendee???"
Shaf:"Bende apeee????"
Me:"Kasottttttttttttttttttttt!!!! *sparkling eyes*
Shaf:"Oh, pink gray blackk eyhhh?? (smile)
Me:"Ahhh ahhh!!! LAWARRRRRRRRR"

went into the shop. bunch of matreps. stared at the shoe like wth. haha.
standing at there thinking bapeeeeeee sahhhh niiii???!!! takde price jek
Malas pulak nak tanye. Walk out and msg one of my skater friend :) So,
im thinking to buy it next week. Hehh. CB eh me. Nampak bende lawar,
beli. Chill uhh, ni baru katekan fidi original. Tapi serious uhh, its damnn
blardy nice. Buying it next weeekkk, hopefully. but how? huhu. Lagilagi
my parents have to save$$ for my upcoming bloodtest. But this money
that im going to buy the shoe is = to my moneyy eyhh. Im dying to hav
it long ago.

My skater friend told me this. hahaa, funny uhh "Dulu Nike Dunks tapi
sekarang VANS. Next ape pulak?hahh" i was at there, laughing. And i
said this "Nike Dunks susah nakk carii seyhh. VANS got my size:)" and
my friend says "Hahhaa, small feet.""lol"








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WILL UPDATE THE REST PRETTY SOON. BYEBYE



with shakila::


with diyanawondergirl::


with louieesmena::


with feesah::


with syeddah::


with nadiabby::


with adeqradhi::


with rozitabby::


with nisahchoo::


with shafirahbby::



i remembered still that me, yaya and syeddah went to wild wild wet to celebrate
our one day enjoying to the beginning of a new secondary life. lol. memoriesxz :)

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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