Its 0943am, ohman, im dead bored but will heading Tampines later for a while
then back to school in the afternoon. Some practice going on :) Oh yeah, see tat
picture above? ^^ Isn't it cherubic????!! awwwwwhh, hehe. Gosh, im hungry!!

Oh, hello. School was like nothing for today. Many teachers were out for course which
includes my malay teacher. Ohmann. Dead bored. Did passed physics test for the very
first time, sheesh. Weird huh?? But, it was an effort, thank god. Had Dnt after recess.

Just left me, choo, hawa, mr ramly, maggie, jiaqi, mardhiah and divi was inside class
while the rest went to den and print stuffs. Slacked for the whole 180 minutesxzz by
listening to songs&drama, Korean onesxz from Hawa's phone. I was being like some
abnormal person at that time. So, i did told Hawaa about the alien thing that makes
me wanna laugh every time thinking about that. Crazy enough. So pathetic. Had cca
after school, then went to TM with Natasha to search for stuffs=> homesweethome!




I miss you, infact, A LOT MORE than you do my dear. You don't know how much
i wanted to be with you and how much je vous aime toujours. Bigger than anytink
else in this world. All im thinking is you and nothing else. I wish you know this :'(

you belong to me.

I got like less than 20minutes to update this bloggy before lappy is out of battery.
Just being lazy to charge it ^^ Anw, im down with flu everynight. Sheesh.

Math test was tough but physics was awesome :) for the first time i said that okay.
Tomorrow will be Geography. Still studying. Memorizing the points. And yeah, Ms
Tan gave 'us' a support and motivation :D awww, thanks :) it was touching indeed!
Gooopowerr! Tmrw PE :) and later afternoon, Sports Heats at Bedok Stadium and
then, continuation of cheerleading practice at there too. Ohh -.-

Please remind me to do malay homework , heh heh ^^ Ohya, for sure you guys
realised that time past fast =DD Soon its going to be March and lessons will be
suspended for the whole week. Guess what GUEss Whatt????!!!! Will be going
SENTOSAAAAAA next Friday. Awesomeeeeee :D ECP, Science Centre and more
and also, Math Mock Examm O.O ohhh..

Im darn tired yeah. I keep having bad dreams every night/morning and wakeup
in a sudden at around 4am. It was thrilling. Oh goshhh. And my cat accidentally
scratch my hand using his sharp claws while i was studying =.= bleed.



okay, bye.

Creeping me out. Sports day heats in two days time. Oh man. Should have gone
practice with the rest. Haha but its just that one thing, i don't have track shoes:)
Awesome. Spare me one can? im sized 36/5. Small feet :D hahaa!! Kidding. Any
shoes will do provided that its not big... Running for 100m and 200m -.- and as
pernormal, cheerleading. Woohoo, cool.. and all the best :)

GO ALPINE! :)

Im tired and nowadays, i wokeup at almost 6am and went out at 0640. Took bus
the same as Fira. Met the rest in school. Standard place. And assemblee :) House
meeting was making me like krookkrook, haha. Chem test was hard.



i wonder when can i have a talk with you outside... haishh. there's a lot of
things to say but scared that i'll be speechless when confronting with you.

Santau was awesome and thrilling. Everyone was in a shock, i guess :) while
half of it, i took vids of their expression. Will upload it soon alright? We were
at Kila's crib yesterday afternoon together with the owner, nenek, Irah, Min,
Shaza, Nana and Zeze :) Probly, it ended at around 6plus? Lets express our
gratitude to nenek for the movie fun :) Yayness babes.

Bought for sister her bbt, myself. Shaf too :) Shaf headed home while me,
nana and zeze went to MacD to accompany them to have their bite. Had a
laughter together :) Then went home. I walked home instead of taking the
bus. I was walking wen this anonymous stranger was talking like an alien
means, too fast for me to understand. I gave the 'what face' ^^ haha.



That night, i did ALL my homework including my remedial ones. I was darn
sleepy that i shouted "ARRGGHHH, im so sleepyyy -.-" One of the show that
really caught my eyes was some malay drama which is really morose. Almost
cried. About two child and a mother. The father died because of sickness but
everytime the wife wants 2 beatup the son, the wife always thought of her late
husband's message not to physically beat the child up. It was really touching.

So, when im at bed at around 11pm, lucky enough sister was in the room :D
because i was feeling scared. Yeah. But it was a disaster, i woke up at 4am&
it was so hard for me to sleep. So i kept thinking beautiful stuffs and there i
fell asleep.


Today, i don't know whats the reason for me being feebly. Like scared yknow.
Was shivering and i swear the morning wasn't making me calm. I wokeup at
0830 and parents were out. Watched teevee and i realised that time past fast
for today. It was making me worried because i wasn't in a mood to study ='((
Sad much. For the whole morning, my heart was breaking, sobb.

Somehow, i cried for a reason. But im still finding the reason why. I was way
too down and i force myself to stand up and be happy. Let the pain be behind
me but not in front. Its all because of you that ive been thinking lately :( But
hey, i guess there's no use loving you because you yourself do not know that.
It was just my imagination. I want you to agnised that je vous aime tonjours.
Find the meaning. Its like impossible to you, i perhaps.
Its just a remembrance.
hanya kenangan yang tinggal.

WE MISS YOU GEETHA ='((
Im feeling deplorable because dearest Geetha has been admitted to the hospital.
I get to know it when Ben sended me the message last night. Oh gosh, this is soo
making me or even us worried and sad about her condition. Geetha was sick and
i forgotten what was the sickness and yes, imissher ='(( I cried during circle time
as Mrs Toh told about the news. All was inside my head was, imissher calling me
'small girl' whenever she's around ='((( she never failed to say Hello to me when
we always bumped into each other every morning at the bustop , sobbbb. I still
remember, we sat beside each other for chemistry when it was back to the past
at level three. She always cheer people up, sincerely.... Judging her, Geetha is a
very nice person with a golden heart. I hope, she will for all time be strong. 412
still needs her ='( Without her, we are incomplete.

Oh god, imissher alot so does 412 ='( even she was not with us just now for the game,
her presence still lingers around us :( We will pray for you dearest Geetha. Hope u'll
getwellsoon. Ofcourse, i still remember wen u came to Hougang Stadium and waited
for me and Iraah to finish our training at there till night. You are suchhhh...an Angel
Geetha ='( , huhu.

Im gonna save up my money till at least May/June. Sooooo going for digital perm which
sis ask me to go, at Eastpoint -.- probly cos nearly 200bucks. Woah. But, for the good
yeah. How badly i want my long hair back. Sheesh. Like some desperate ^^

I don't feel that my life is being treated fairly :( i admit im small but it doesn't mean
that i don't have feelings. It hurts when somebody is trying to look down on me esp
wen d person doesn't respect.Don't you have a heart? What was on your mind when
you say like that?

LOVE::
Half of it, im very sad, im trying to give myself a time out. Soon, i guess.But its just
that, i can't get this thing over. How badlyyy i really want you to know but, im still
finding the perfect time to tell you.

Hanya engkaulah yang ku selalu fikirkan.Tak pernah ku lepaskan rase rindu
kepadamu, _______. Setiap hari ku akan selalu menyebut namamu dalam
hatiku yang pedih ni.Sebulan ku paksa diriku untuk melupakanmu, tetapi, ku
tak bisa kerana kenangan masih ku ingati. Denyut jantungku apabila mendengar
suaramu yang merdu itu pada kali pertama engkau datang kepadaku. Dan
sekarang, kau telah pergi dari hidupku. Walaupun sebentar sahaja kenangan
kita, ia amat mengagumkan sekali. Ku begitu rindu kepadamu. Tetapi, ku tau
engkau tidak begitu peduli tentang ini. Hanya kenangan yang tercicir.







i wish i didn't exist.
and so do i miss my 'used to be crush'



We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do

Im blank right now. I don't get it why everytime i wanted to put something at my blog,
i'll be so blank when there is plenty of things i wanna talk about actually. Sheesh.. Ok,
just lets start about what happend from the last three days. Celebration was sometink
that is pure awesome, who doesn't love to celebrate right? That person is so the noob!
So yeah, it was the blast. Not only for a person but around dozens of beautiful humans
celebrated together :D Paparazzi was around to snap our photos ;D Seeing everyone's
expression was humor. Dopes and Dolts are like kindred.. The blood that flows in our
vein inside us and so do we, D&D belong to each other.

After the who celebration happening, i was all by myself, travel at different places :D
you may think im insane but hey, it was fun. Math book was bought. Met my 'kin' too
So, i almost went home at seven but then me and parents went for dinner nearby to
make our stomach full and there goes home sweet home.


Weekends is something that ive been waiting every week. Wanting so much to have my
rest at home. But, i did went out to search for some school stuffs. Metup with my bestie
and coincidence, met with dearest grandparents respectively. They were cherubic ;DD
After the whole shopping that bestie had bought, i went home, change and off to north,
joined in with friends for a while while checking stuffs. My butt feels like burning and d
reason is, i've sat down for way too long. Bused off to tamp after that. Im so buying the
very last sneakers, Osiris/Reebok. And i wish, time past fast. Just.. breathe slowly.








and, thankyou for the valentines day gifts :)

Apology for not updating. Especially pictures. You see, i got no time to upload but, i'll
upload it :) Lappy? i got no idea how to bluetooth it. Forgawdsake. This is so pathetic
Sheesh.

Monday which is today, i cried a lot, i think. Tears roll. I was dismay about my score.
It was, like... uurrrggghh, speechless. I know i didn't do well but i hope i WILL do well
for my next test that is coming. A BIG thankyou to my friends for cheering me up ;D
awwwww, sweetest of all. Persevere. Failure doesn't mean the end of life, right guys?
Lets talk about Friday to Sunday ayeee. Got lots of things to talk. Fake xD

Friday, CCA day :) went CCA late with nenek and whitestuff due to some reasons behind
it which you guys no need to know, yeahh. CCA was, lol? didn't do much. Me and mel did
something stupid during the video taking from teacher's cammy, laughs* like some noob
person. So, school is mostly about BUTTERFLY this year ;D Jyeahh!! loveit. Thumbs up
yooo. SO, skipp. The com lab was level 3. Me and Nat wasted our blardy time to go down
when the palm cove just closed. I was like, assu. Just after CCA finished, it rained heavily
wahh!! Went home, showered then to parents meeting with mum which ended at around
9++???? Took bus together with Shaf too and motherS :) So, pasar malam! Went to our
separate ways. Me, mum went to KFC. Saw Isma and her mum. Dad was outside KFC &
walked home. Reach at about 11pm. Ooohhhhh.. Ate KFC then.




Saturday, meetup with meeko since he was like.. under my block? wth. haha. Flag Day
yee, lols. Talked for like one minute? hahs. And off to kedai then home. After that, siap,
go meet kawan baik at Tampines :) Hoping that he'll cope well in his life after what had
happend to his RS. Chill ayeeee. Life goes on. Gedebak gedebukkk, went home at 8pm
like that? yeahhh..



Sunday, accompany Nisahchoo to Tamp to buy her DNT stuff, Duck sniffer. lolol!! haha!
But, cheap seyhh. It was in the morning anw. And i was late, omg! sorry choo!! Thenthen,
Yassin came to Tamp since he's from ecp chalet. Eat nasi ayam, slack at T.ONE. Picsxzz
and off to Bedok to meet Iraah. Separate ways. Went to pasar 'malam' to buy food. TY
iraah for the fishy ball :) //then, to the football game. Played for 30min, omg. Can diee!!
SHittt, hahaaaaa.. But still, SPFC won :) Yayynesss!!! My v.first to do my heading for the
game. Awessoommmeeeeee.

Heyyy, :] im back for posting. This week seems to be a loner for remedial. Oh my, i feel
so pathetic yknow going for Geog remedial, all alone. The only who attends. Aiyodeyh!!
Kinda stress nowadays, huhu. Not only that, im super tired every single day even after
eating my medicine/coffee. Sheesh. 3eee tests in a week makes my brain wanna burst!
Arrgghhhh. Ok, random. Otp with cin yesterday night. Awesome, kecohkecoh. Lalalaaa

Pictures other days. Im tired now. And, meetup soon ________ :] lotsofmisses.

Unprivated my blog. Read it. Its gonna be damn bored. Nothing much :)
hahhhaaa. No spamming. Will private back on Saturday.

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

Republic Polytechnic
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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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