i swear just now was crazy shit yawww.. me, neena and shaza was like bunch of
monyets in the class [during recess] !! haha, but fun :] superduperb fun! Yayy!
Video was taken by Shafirah No worries, she'll upload it, very2 soon. Its just tat
i think she's sleeping soundly now. Nyahaha!! lmoa.

Anw,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!

especially to beloved teacher(s) include our dearest form teacher, Mrs Toh;DD
awwhh.. She won the Resilience award. threeonetwo yelled like there's no other
day =.= haha. Siti really standup. Semangat threeonetwo pahh!!! Yayyy!! Took
pictures. Will upload later. My eyes are like urrhhh.. sleepy leyyyy. We did the
mirthful aerobics because of ACES day. Sheesh. 1 line, me, zeze, nisah, efah
and kila did the aerobics. Muahahaha!!!! maoottt!!! After the whole event, went
to meet dearests friends, the best ones :::D Syeddah & Diyana. sedih,Yaya&
Fafa didnt make it. So, stuck with 3. Gah, i really miss them. Its been months
imagine that. Lalalaaa. And, saw, nenek and companies at library. Ahahaa!!! ;D

Summarized shortly: Today was really fun :)
i want nobody nobody but youu.. bahh

because i love him :)

HELLO :]
So, since i got plenty of time before my prayers, i shall post (boredom) =.=
Last two days, we WON the match against SportingWestlake by Six-Zero.
Bah.. can say there'll be another two more match left. All the best. Andand
they did very good for the game :]

And yesterday, locomote to Hougang Stadium with IrahDevil. Walauuwey,
its raining v.heavily eh.. Lucky, we're not soaking wet there BUT, we were
wet when the fun part comes that we played with Aide Iskandar ;D weeee.
Fidi: "Shaf, shooting ape uhh??"
Shafirah: "Tak tawu ehhh (blank)"

Lol. We all were blank, Heran ape shooting kiteorang kene uat :) And get to
know that we are sooo called 'background roll' playing football that we gona
show two mums wat soccer is about. Passion ::]] After we were v.wet, head
to shower and watched their game against Tiong Bahru. Camwhored before
that. Superbb Fun yawww! // Glum* me and Shaf gotto rush to Geylang to
buy our makanan buke. OK, brb :)

Another Eight more posts, im gonna celebrate my 400 posts at my blog:) hahhaahaa,
lame. Its been like days since i last updated. Been lazy. Just checking my blog and
then clicking the X button=start+shutdown. Thats all i do:)

Ok, i passed my Maths, English, Malay, only :(( The shocking was i failed Dnt because
teacher doesnt want to combine a lot of marks for our CA(2) because he wants to use
the rest of the marks for EOY. Thats clever but im not satisfied. Nvm, we'll see in the
end okay. Gotto buckkup for Science&Humanities =.= If sis can do it, why cant i??? I
really wanna be like her, not totally but in her studies. She suffered for her Ns & Os bt
in the end, she suceed to get into her reality school, poly.. I wanna feel it too yknow :(

SO, really gotto buckup. Going to do notes for all... Gawdd, pls give me d strength esp
during this fasting month. Sobb & training was pure tough.. Oh, tmrwS match against
Sporting Weslake at JBS, 7.30pm Hmm.. All the best fro SPFC.
Idk why but i feel so bored of having RS in the mean of time. For my life, pardon me.

SENGKANG ............... PUNGGOL!!! :: =))

Yeahhh, Sengkang Punggol WON against NYPGA yesterday night. Eventhough i
didnt get to play but yet, im proud for the rest :))) they did extremely laborious &
topper. YAYYYY for them! The score was... errrrrr.. idk ehk? 3-1 or 4-1 like thatt
Bahhh.. And probly went home very late at 11.20pm?? sobb. But im happy becos
adeq Syazwan Radhi&fam was there to support. Nyahahh. Thanks ehk. weeeeeee

After the game, met ADEQQRADHI inside. Talked for a while as i need to rush for
shower. Poor adeq, hope u are doing fine kaes? Gawdd, i really miss him. My 3yrs
friendship is still on the flow. Kekal kan? gah. Didnt managed to take pics wit him..
Maybe next time kay? next game, i guess? Hee. Other than tat, i managed to say
ly :) happyhappy. So yeahh, like that uh.

Ohsss, tak sahur niari. Tapi, i'll think positive ayee. Tetap strong :) nyahahahaaa..


cos i love him very much :D


Other than that, its time or sooner im gottoo delete everything from my phone including
pictures and songs :( bt dun worry cos ive put inside my comcom. And, thinking of baju
rayeeee. This year Rose Red gitu lurhh. Hmm.. And i wont be that active. Bye//



2007&2009 picture

CRAVINGS:: THE SIMS 3&PINK LG COOKIE
iminlovewith _ _ _ _ L<3 ;)) guess urself okies?
cant wait for a new phonephone in NINE DAYS! :) weeeeeeeeeeee

:::
DONT WORRY ABOUT ME, I'LL BE FINE :) // :(
i felt soo depressed after doctor's comment on me. i felt like there's no hope in me again..
i looked down and hold on to my tears.. i lied to dad and kept my mouth shuts, didnt say
a single thing. Dad waited outside while mum wasnt there. Dad asked "?what doc says?"
Me: "Uh?umm.. takde pape.. Im discharged now." so, went home with a sad face behind
my back. I fake a smile though. But actually doc says She cannot do anything anymore:(
It will be myself.I was Oh,ok:(( // Silent. Reached home&deadly asleep till this morning
WOW.

anw, i dun get it why must someone treat me like a piece of shit???!!
heartless or what?! pikir aku tak sedihh perr saahh.. tentu uh sedih,
tentu uh aku ade perasaan.. so fcukkupp! jadi, jage perasaan orang
baik2. jgn busuk busukkn hati sendiri eh. its nt related to my blood
friends kaes.

BECAUSE IM SORRY.

THANKS FRIENDS FOR CHEERING ME UP!
i will never give up okay?

So, school was fine. Maths result make me dissapointed. I cried, seriously. Im sincere
and im proud to be dependable. I'll keep trying harder for my FYE. Hoping that ov.all,
i'll pass. Hopefully. Gawd, help me!! My eyes were swollen & red. Mardy lagi shouted
someone's name that it makes me more weaker!! dieee. Friends cheered me up. TY:)
very much.You guys were the only one who i can count on whenever im feeling down
Baaahhh.. you make me wanna smile again :D

Not forgetting, i miss Dorcas. Gahh... And others too. Sorry for not attending training.
Tomorrow i have to go TP to support PYinfocommers so i wont be attending training,
again. Shitt feelings yaww. Im sadd but i'll meet you guys this Saturday game okay?



Other than that, this will be my title.
I FELT LIKE I WAS BETRAYED BY U&NOT MAD BUT IM DISSAPOINTED
tohhhmann.. why??!! why cant you tell me earlier? im not mad but dissapointed!
urrghhh.. listenn..

I won't make it any further with you on my back
Carry a burden I can't do it this time, goodbye
Then again, do I listen to my
heart, do I cry for help
I keep second guessing myself
Why does it have to be so, hard to let you go

Its almost sun down
I gotta put my foot down and I know if I do
it's gonna hurt me more than it hurts you
I know, how much you need me
Breaks my heart, believe me
Now I know what I gotta do
But it's gonna hurt me more than it hurts you
More than it hurts you
More than it hurts you

::THIS WAS THE WORST::I WISH MY MY LIFE WAS INADEQUATE::

sometimes I cant decide if I love you or i really hate you but i though
I once believed you could make my dreams come true ::: and you hurt
me so bad but I always stayed thinking it would be worth it. I told myself
all the time to be strong but i'm not that strong enough, I fight for wat I wan
and when I no longer want to look for what I need, its crumbling :(( Now i
know that you're not the one for me and i gotto learn to let you go. When
the moment i left, you didn't looked back but i did and u were gone. Here's
your good bye, live your life cause its going to be long&let our date rest in
its grave. Goodbye, love.



more pictures at futsal and after dinner will be post asap okay? patience.


LET THE MUSIC SING IT FOR THE LAST.
Listen...

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you just gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Listen...

I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't care if you're lying a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

So don't promise me
So don't promise me

went out with Shafirah for a moment :) im glad to hear a funny news from you infact,
thats a very good news for you bbe. all the best kay bby. took 123456789 pictures ;D
couldnt count becos its triple the dozens. muahahahaa! unbelievable! matreps. laugh
like there's no other day. no offence :)) okay, why bother them right? im currently in
an erotic love :D i love love the weather. nyahah! after metup with dearest, locomote
to TampONE, shopp. Went Diva, bought stuff for someone tmrw. Gawddd.. its damn
nice. i hope she'll like it. Other than that, saw Nadiaaabby, her sis and her mummy;)
awwhh, i miss her so much! talked for a while then locomote home.

When im inside the bus, suddenly something protrude. There was this couple infront
of me, dissimilar of sizes. no offence. let me say this first okay? i was dazed BUT, ape
salah nye kan? wats the wrong right? it doesnt matter how the person looks like, tall
short, skinny, blubber. Tats not important. The main is being true for love. If theres
fate, you'll be together no matter what happend yknoww. Jodoh tak akan ke mane :)

i feel so weaked, now. a feeling like deliquium. gawdd. if only i can endure it.
ive been forbearance for all this while and now idk what should i do :(

my love story now.....
i love this guy yknow... like in a sudden and its recently. gawd, i really felt in love
with him deeply. we once metup but we rarely get to see each other, till now. Its
like, i really looking forward to meet him but he like in a sudden vanished!! thats
sad. well, sometimes. ive been waiting for his msg especially. i said to my friends
how sad am i for these few days. Though, i remembered his angelic posture! ;DD
Goosebumps.. hee.. but i cannot believe its gone now. He used to msg me but nw
no. How could he??! i can be loony. baahh.. endure bby, i will. but wtv it is, i stay
in love with him. just wishing that guy was reading this. some random.

HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY, NISAHCHOOOOO ;D
may ur wishes will be granted and semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki :)

OHH GAWDD, Dorcas is leaving in two more days :(( *glum* haishh... eventhough
i just knew her for less than two months but still i'll miss her. i gotto say thankyou
for ur support especially during training. For that, i'll miss your voice shouting my
name :( SO, tmrw there will be a farewell game for Dorcas for the last before sheS
going on Monday. Bahhh.. saddddd!! but wtv it is, pray for the hard that SPFC will
suceed in further matches.





i want theseeeeeeeeeeee ;DD itss hott dan lebih jauh bezaaa

leftout picsx

This is damn bored =.= sheesshh.. Ouh, other than that, well, someone's has
turned 15 today and soon tmrw will be NisahChooooS turn. Today is YayaS
Birthday :)

HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY, YAYA :D
hoping that u'll have fun on your birthday and semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki.
takecareeeeee!

Okay, today school was err, idk?? still struggling about math thingy (graph) haha.. going
to buck up on that. Ive studied Geog :) Half.. Shitt.. but tonight makesure i'll get all of it
inside my head which i wan to include Social Studies. Hoping tat i'll stay up late like wat
sis always did lastime and still doing it now. Woah.. and tmrws going out?! maybe alone.
to Vivo :) i miss that blardyy place. I'll stay at one corner to study the rest of my subs!
all the best :) OH, just now went home with Kila&Zeze ;) Kekekkk uhh! lol. Bahhhh, next
week going back hosP, againnn..

i really wanna pass so that i can prove to mum&dad that i can handle things better
than before and to get a new phone in 31-14=17 more days. Prayy Hard.

National's Day Pictures. Some are not uploaded. Most is with Heikal.
Patience :)




Before Match at OLD PA :) lovesss





DEPRESSION!
again and again. i feel like there's not gonna be a fullstop for it// fakaaa btol!
only one problem is left and the only thing i can do is to hateee. truly missing
adeq Syazwan Radhi. Gahhh.. he's away to Thailand for his soccer and will b
coming back home this Friday, which is CHOO's 15th BIRTHDAY :) haha

as usual, my blog will be dead yawww. so, i'll be back after common test ends after
19 August :) all the best for the common test. to you tooo ayeee. byee.. but i think,
my private blog will be on air :)) active lahh. ohya, to commence with, school today
was really tiring. i slept after physics class test. blardyyyy tired!!! tmrw training lagi
mamposssss.. gotto endure.. maths 3hours lagi. kimakkk..

and i wanna a eyebrow piercing.. dun know when. maybe after school ends :)


2007 pic of me. lol

i cried a lot today. i dont know why but it seems it hurts so much after watching
LOVE. i dun wanna elaborate too much bcos im still crying. think i'll cry till OPA
sorry shaf if i gotto cry infront of you. im just depress.

oh, going back hos next week. all the best for my results :(

YESTERDAY
gotto say, THANKS ehkkk cin for accompany-ing me at Bukit Panjang. uh Durhh!!
ur hometown =.= hee bt seriously, thanks :) what are friends for yknow. Managed
to take 3 photos only! whutt.. nvm.. Talked crap stuff. Ni lah cin.. Mcm trauma eh!
Baru ku ingat. Ahahhaa!! Uhh kidding. Fun talking to youu niwayyss ;D heh. After
we metup, i rush to Bedok to buy kasut for today and head to JBS to watch Middle
Rangers VS Young Women.Woahh.. M.R was superb good. Young Women did well
too. After 9, salam all then head homeee.

fidi terpakse kene bilang cin. i gotto be dependable. prevarication wont help. im dwelled.
:((

TODAY GOING TO MEETUP WITH MY KAWAN KAWAN!!! ;DD YAY! shld be goin
to lepak at Esplanade or Marina Mac :) tegur ye kalau nampak.

Tagged by Santi :)

1) Are you sinqle or attached ?
Ans : Single. But Crushing:)

2) Do you have a person you like ?
Ans : Uhhh Duhh. We, as a human LIKE each other.

3)What is the name of your person you in love with ?
Ans : For me to know, for you to find out. Certain knows.

4)If the person you in love and your mother dropped into the sea , who will you save?
Ans : Mummy!

5)Have you hug someone before ?
Ans : Randommm.. yupp.

6)Do you love your parents ?
Ans : YEAHH!

7)Will you hug the want you love ?
Ans : Yes. Thats not a problem.

8)Are you willinq to do anythinq for your boyf/girlf ?
Ans : I'll do the same if they did the same too:)

9)Are you jealous now ?
Ans : Kind of. I cannot kick long passes. Shit.

10)Who is the last person who msq you ?
Ans : Wan.

11)Who is your clique ?
Ans : Nopeee.

12)Do you want babies in future ?
Ans : Next 14 years? after marriage.

13)Do you prefer MacDonald , long john silver or KFC ?
Ans : KFC!

14)Do you sniff glue ?
Ans : piece of shit mann.

15)Do you smoke ?
Ans : nope. its dependable.

16)If your boyf /girlf play 2 timer behind you , what will you do ?
Ans : go to hell. it always happend in rs.

17)If you rich , what will you do ?
Ans : Visit the orphans,elderly, donate foods :) thats what i always
wanted to do, seriously.

18)If the love wants held your hand , what will you do ?
Ans : i can feel BUTTERFLIES! pink Bflies..

19)If the want you in love , reject you , what will you do ?
Ans : depress. love cannot be forced.

20)What is your favourite character ?
Ans : Barbie ehk. Those Barbie movies. yeahh

21)Friendship or love ?
Ans : Both at the same time.

22)Cookie monster or elmo ?
Ans : Both. Cuteee them :)

23)Do you use laptop or computer ?
Ans : Both.

24)Do you like lollipop ?
Ans : Err, yah?

25)Do you have a diary ?
Ans : Yupp, still keeping and writing it.

26)there an admirer and wont die heart , what will you do ?
Ans : whutt?

27)If you quarrel wit your boyf / girlf , and ask for a break up , what will you do ?
Ans : why?

28)Are you blur ?
Ans : Yeahh, blur like sotongg ;D

29)If you can have your hair dye , what colour do you want it to be ?
Ans : Brown.

30)Who is the last person you chatted with
Ans : Long time never sign in msn.

31)How many boyf / girlf have you beaten before ?
Ans : No Life perr! hahh.

32)If you boyf / girlf do not love you anymore , what will you do ?
Ans : i dont love you too.

33)What school are you in ?
Ans : PingYi Secondary School

34)Taq 10 bestie or friends to do this quiz ?
Ans :
1)Anisah
2)Feesah
3)Hanisah
3)Izza
4)Shafirah
5)Shakila
6)Siti Hawa
7)Sumi
8)Yaya
9)Diyana
10)Lathifah

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love


Yesterday, had National Day Celebration :] it was fun and was given a windbreaker.
Weeeee. Okay, lame. Then at night, had training. Go home, eat & sleep. Today? dun
know wanna go where :(( but will be going to see Young Womens match at JBS :) All
the bestt ayeee!

somebody admitted that he lovess me...


OKAY, gonna get this fonneee in 23more days :) heheee. PINKKK.

school was sickening even im sickened by it. shouldnt have come to school
yesterday and tmrw since mum insist but nahh, there's maths yknow =.=
studied graph. the hard hard one:) but i really hoping that Shaf wont drop
just because of soccer. Shaf!! do study hard. Focus 2 at a time. Manage ur
time wisely kaes :) i know you cann. Yesterday had training! superb tired!
4msgs, one missed call. haiyaa.. but training was duperb fun yaww! i want
moree.. im so tired now! *glum* and thanks Nisah for the song!! I thought
it was a one boring song with the starting like that. hahhaa. but ended upp
woooaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nice one, dudee. ok, lamee. gtg! oh, and tmrw
National Day celebrationn ;DD heheee.

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don’t want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won’t leave me alone

If you come back to me
I’ll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Chorus
(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(You’re one in a million)

pleaseeeeee, can i have the 11th :) .. EOY good result, iPhone :)


this is what Ben says. It really makes my mind change. Thanks ehk Ben :)

"Simple........dont leave!! you got a lot of friends that is going to miss ya and you will
miss 312's fun! :) There are a lot of things you will miss. So plss, dont go :(("

awwwhhhh, its very sadd yknoww..

From East, To North, To West, To East and home sweet home baybeyhh!! ;DD
Went out, alone. No life but its kindda fun yknow. Went to Bukit Panjang. Study
at there and then continue writing at my diary... Bought Mr Bean ;DD Headed to
Causeway Point den. Walk2 and board 168 to Tampines Mall. Bought shoelaces
Strikingggggggggg ;DD sukerr!!! thenn, went home, eat and msging Apitt &Adeq
Radhi :) Next Sunday going National Day! fireworks only. Gahh.. ok, bye.

and of course, Happy Birthday(s) to RarAzura and Isma Aliff :))

lupekan sahajalah fidi.

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Chorus :
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

Republic Polytechnic
Business Information Systems

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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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