I can't remember when
He looked at me and cried
Said something broke inside of you
Were my best friend
Whatever come our way
You know I'm your gal 'till the e-e-end

When I finally go away
I know you'll look for me one day

When you let love down
Oh you let love down
I don't have to remind you
But you know that I'm around
When you let love down
Oh you let me down
Get a little love down
Let it down oh oh

Besok ISMA ALIFF FIRDAUS nye birthday. Baru kiteorang tawu pahh. lol :)
Hahaaa.. Anw, its good :) Niwaysss, school was okay. English CraPp A lot!
Mr Shahid was like ??!! lol. Talked bout d guy who took the oral. A lil retard.
hahahhha.. ade ke cikgu boleh ketawer biler ngan ade oral! XDD ahahha!

somedayyyy....i have to forget you guys. i still got less than 4months to
spent time :( i'll be sad but its my choice that ive made. Make a promise
for me that you guys will always takecare and endure every problems
you have. if you're facing with difficulty, don't give up because u'll get
through and lastly, thank you for the memories, friends. sorry for not
telling you because i dont want to spread it out for the whole world to
know. blog can be but not all because im still thinking.



macam kenal ehkk.. lol

its wayyyy too late for me :(( So,
I HAVE TO LEARN TO LET YOU GO.

i had enough. mind you not to speak his name again.
goodbye.

28 July 2009, TUESDAY

HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY, SHAFIRAH
HAPPY THIRTEEN BIRTHDAY, HILDA

my dearest friend, may you have an awesome surprise and wishes to come!
as you wanna know,we, as a friend will always love and support you. you are
considered the lucky ones who was given a red hot psp for your bdayy from
ur loved ones, family. And unexpected birthday cake in the canteen.. ;D may
you enjoy your tomorrow with colorful butterflies and rainbows. Because tmrw
will never end. Lastly, do cherish with your loved ones. Janganlah kasih nasi
menjadi bubur. Ly, bestfriend ; ) as well as your friends too do love you.





Other than that, we celebrated Shaf's bday at the canteen. Low class tawu but
its still something:) Ouh, she thought that it was a sabo but nahh, it was not. It
was a surprise. A birthday cake for a birthday girl. Baru fifteen ke? ahahhahh!
Ate the cake then after that, Shafirah went to my house to change and wen for
training. I hurt my stomach. OH!, Before that, we ate at Banquet. Hehe. Okay,
yesterday was awesomeee? ahahaa, okay.

Today, Wednesday. As pernormal. Went home straight away. And im tired ; ((
Gahhhhhhhhh, today Yassin will be back home? yeahh..

gawdddddddddd!!! im tired! really really tired. after school, i dun give a damn
about homework at first but my sleeping was my first thing to do after i got
home sweet home ;D ahaha.. ouh, forget to mention, im fasting:) Kind of@#
feeling fainting. But no, im still strong. I didnt managed to wake up at 5am to
have my sahur. Ended up me waking up at 5.20am :) So, maseyh ader time.
Just ate a slice of bread and a sip of ribena.Please feel commiserate towards
me. Gagaggaa.. Whoever cares. Im HUNGRY! waiting for the time to come!
Ouh, and again, tmrw training ;) and yeahh, SHAFIRAHS BIRTHDAY too:)

okay, will be likee posting after Wednesday. And yes, The Asean Sepak Takraw
Boys were in the newspaper last week. Forgotten to tell you. Which include Acin
inside. His FACE!!! with Ameer. ahahhaa!



Ouh, other than that, talked to mum about my past relantionship with my Ex(s)
i said to mum that "dalam banyak banyak ex, die lah sempurna untuk diana" :((
mum gave me adviced..so yeah.. but quite sedih uh. tapi, in a sudden! sumpah
lagu sempurna by gita gutawa keluar dari sensasi. i SHOUTED!! & said to mum!
"Bu!!!!!!!!! tengok, tadi diana baru ckp sempurna! u see, the SONG, Sempurna!"

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku
Akan selalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku
Kukan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu manghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku kau begitu...
Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku...
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata
Dan hapuskan semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu manghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku kau begitu...
Sempurna...

Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu...
Sempurna...
Sempurna...
Sempurna...

Yesterdayy, went to Natasha's crib to some project thingy. Boleh ke kite boleh
sesat halfway? astagaa!! ahahhah.. after we got her block, level pulak tak tawu
aiyoooo!! so, nvm. We managed to find.There, i only get to spent like one hour
with them :( sad but yet, FUN ;DD wahahahaa.. so, board 67. Metup with Shaf
at Inter there and naik 67, again. lol.

had a match against Young Women yesterday. So yeahh, not to be arrogant or
whatsoever. But Sengkang Punggol WON ;D Syidah really did great. OMFG ;D
seriously. She shoots and she scores! But to Young Women, nvm.. u guys did
great yesterday:) .. So, after match, coach belanje makan near the JBS.. Talk2
with them. Gahhh.. Oh, not forgetting, met Anisah, Valerie... weeee.. Ok, best!!
Suddenly after i got home, mum talked about changing of school.. Idk how my
sis knows. Shittt.. nvm.. Mum said.. if i got my final year exam good result, i'll
be changing school. To get a better school. But i still dunknow whats my ans.

ouh, forgot. The score: 1-0

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i miss (insert name)

what do you feel when your own bestfriend is moving out from school? would you
feel very sad?? Im sure you will feel glum.. I cried after recess thinking about my
decision ive made to mum :(( Nisah cried in MTL class. Shaf was angry+sadd. Im
sorry baby-s. I didnt mean to hurt you guys but the proved was shown to Nisah&
Shaf. But i still need to think too.I still got less than 5months to spent with u guys
Let this b the most memorial year okay frens. Dun cry friends because no matter
what, i'll always remember you guys :) but chill, the answer/result is not out yet..
Wait for final year. I love you guys :] always till the end.

sumpah kawan baik! ;D


gonna post! YAY!! *applause* kay lame. So, yesterday, tuesday school ends late. Till
3pm. Fcuk. Ive been thinking about training at night thats the reason why im not tat
awake during lessons. Nisah know. She really endure a lot during MTL. Huahhahaa;)
sorry yahh. So, went training at night with Shafirah. My upper thigh is pain :( gahhh!
how sad am i. But tetap fun. SENGKANG PUNGGOL ehk! ehehhee..

Today, went school. DURHH!! but quite boring lorhh tapi can lah.. cause Mdm Siti&
Mr Shahid likes to make jokes. lol. Breathe! =.= lalalaa.. But Miss Saw keep nagging.
*yawnn* ;DD ahahhaa.. no offence. and im missing someone now. Sobb. Some of my
friends know. Some only. oh btw, SINGLE TAK MATI! ;DD thats the way. OHsszs!
tmrw racial harmony celebration:D byeee. Think im not going training tmrw :( bcos
mum has been nagging at me to study =.= sheeshh

Sejauh mana mampu bertahan
Sampai bila harusku kenang
Setiap kali bertentangan
Tiada ketenangan

Cemburumu merantai hati
Meleburkan semangat diri
Bila aku kenangkan kemanisan lalu
Semua itu ku ketepikan

Andaiku turut rasa hati
Telah jauh ku bawa diri
Tapi kemaafanku lahir dari hati? mengatasi
Sejarah mungkin berulang
Walau engkauku maafkan
Oh kekasih
Tapi mungkin hanya sementara
Keinsafan di hatimu

Berpanas hujan berembun
Tak pernah ku hiraukan
Asal dapat memenuhi
Segala keinginan hati

Ku bina istana cinta
Dihiasi lukisan rindu
Indahnya pada di luar
Tapi penuh kepalsuan
Bila ku tiada
Terbuktilah
Betapa aku pula di sisimu

Sejarah mungkin berulang

met up with ACIN SIGARAGA!!! ;D hehe.. ouh, takkan terluper. mestilah with
NURULADY, NISAHCHOO, EFAHCHAN and KIDAFA uhseyhh!! ;D plus, met
halfway with MELISSA&VALERIE :)

first first, went out with mum and dad to vivo, makan at banquet then to Daiso
to buy gutter and headed to Queensway S.C to take my jersey:D Efah wants to
see it kann.. hmmm, will upload the pic soon aye prettaye ;D So, after we went
there, metup with Nisah all at MacD and to level 3 to search for wrapper!! But,
sedih! Kila had to go first. Stand at the side of the road. Fetch Acin then! ;D Ku
amat rindukan dierr! same same to Nisah, Kila and Efah. Geee.. bt Kila couldnt
get to meetup with Acin :( bt takpe..there will be next time. Hmmm.. Chill aye!
Walk walk with them inside Bugis Street..Saw Valerie&friends. Wahahha.. but,
i didnt get to terserempak with Aiihaa!! sad pahh.. Hmmpff.. nvm. Then,Nisah,
Efah and Afa gtg. So, salam them. Left me&cin. sheeshhhh =.= ahahhaa.. Mcm
adeq beradeq sahh. Kimakkk.. u see, he can make me laugh like hell yeahhh!!!!
ok,will post back. niari ade match!!!!!!!!!! byeeeeeeeeeee

sorry for not updating. quite tired.. maths here and there. MATHS! okay? lol. So,
on tuesday, should be we having PE but no, the teacher is absent. Crazy arse! =.=
Slack... blablabla... after school, SABO NATASHA WHITESTUFF!! wuahahhaha!!
kesian pahh.. after sabo-ing her, wen to slack with Sumi under this random block
and off to street soccer for a while. Played dare! kirekan semua yang kene dare;)
Fair kan.. at 5pm, went to Bedok Inter, temankan Sumi buy bubble tea and me ft
shaf board bus 854 to Hougang Stadium for training. Luckily the training is nt tat
tough like the previous training. After training, went to MACD with Shaf near her
house there.. Probly, went home around 10+ :] very tired!

OH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SYIDAH&JEANNA :) [sorry for mistakes spelling]

Thursday, match. We lose, yes bt there's no need to be ashamed of because SPFC
can do much better next time :) //Forgot the score uhh. lol. Played right back was
seriously tired but gottoo endure :D And went home nearly at 11pm. The next day,
didnt attend school as i got bad stomachache =.= omfg!! and couldnt even open my
blardy eyes!! =.= denden, at 6pm, meet mum at Geylang. LOL!! I LOVE one of the
dress! fcukkk, $24. Wahahaha... kay, nvm. Next time ehkay. And headed to Tamp.
Bought shinpad... and cheong sam for only $10! cheap ehkk!! offer per. kay best.

Today, Saturday, gonna go VIVO/Harbourfront to eat. And going to Queensway SC
to take my jersey. Harap2 ade time seyhh nak hangout ngan Kila semua. Hmm..

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OKAY, BYEEE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!! ;)
semoga ibu pangjang umur, murah rezeki ye. Heeee.. LOVEYOU :]

so, cant wait Saturday to come as im going to take the jersey at QueenswaySC
and maybe uh go to Nats outing but confirm going with Kila all to BRas BasaH.
Tmrw match. OMFG. im scared. urrrgghhhh. All the best SengkangPunggoFC :]
eheheee.. and Sunday got match too. Maybe im going. It depends. So, ummm,
hoping to meetup with Sigaraga ehss.. we really miss those outing! OUHH!

ithinkistil[L]oveyou.

so, currently IM SUPERB FINE. ive healed :] thats the good thing kann? i miss
my friends damn much siaa. Thanks friends for all ur support. weee.. you rock!
then then, just now, went to KakiBukit CC watch a game then at 10.20am,went
to City Hall to meetup with HALU to pass my form:) i swear she's damn pretty.
Talk Talk for a while and headed to Pasir Ris. Bought more hairbands. BFlieS&
GoodDay. Will always have. Im much more happy now. Semakin CERIA taw ;)
And metup with SUMI :DD ,talk stuffs. Talk a lot. Thanks for sharing ayee. Im
loving it now. Ask Shaf how happy am i just now. Like a PINKBUTTERFLYbby
Meetup with Shaf then while talking OTP with Kila :) kekekk uh siaa. Dah plan
semua untuk Whitestuff nye birthday! ;DD cheyy. Just be ready okay natasha!

Went to Shaf's crib to pass her form and her mum ajak makan? hee. THANKU!
weee..we shared problems. OUH, tuesday clashed seyh. Nat nye bday+training
kimakk.. bleh mati siaa. Terpakse kene bawak shoebag&semua seyhh =.= And,
thursday, MATCH :]]



see that? Thats MELissa :) She's a very good friend of mine since year 2007.
She never failed to make me smile, seriously. Just so you know that you will
never be forgotten :D ,bestfriend :)

YESTERDAY/TODAY
i gotto fight this feelings of mine. im neutral. im strong yet im not. but yesterday was
unbelievable as i'm not aware who the heaven am i and friends are. weirdoo.. When i
talked, i felt like it wasnt me at all bt i could hear you guys talking to me. It was very
hard to fight it. it was me, against the another world. maybe some know what i mean
:0 im sorry friends for causing you guys trouble:(( because of me, you guys didnt get
to celebrate Mrs Toh Birthday. Sob. I was glum too.. I didnt expect that tis shagreen
in a sudden. WEAKK&fainted. Im not gonna elaborate more but to my friends whom
helped me, includes SHAFIRAH, MEL, SITI, NATASHA&TEACHERS,



i need time to set my life at ease:) .. will be going somewhere that is desolate and will
start to go counselling, wtv it is. I need someone to guide me, a guidance. And maybe
im changing school since mum has already asked me.mayb. Mum felt commiseration
towards me after what have done yesterday. im full with tension & depression. And i
was nearly admitted to the hospital :( awwhh.. Mrs Toh wanna sent me to hospital but
mum said, nvm bcos she's scared that i might get more ill. take blood here and there.
haiisshhh. memang takdirku mcm gini. co baan. and i miss my friends. TRAGIC

ummm ummm..yeahh.. school was fine. quite bored. im starting to go home early.
ouhssss, tmrw TRAINING!! andand saturday game but sadd MAYBE im heading
back to JB, again. Gggrrr.. you may be asking to urself why i always go JB.. think
uhh ehkk.. =.= lalalaaa.. sampai biler kiter akan berbual.. :(( i nak berbual
ngan you but im scared...

So, i made this one video. just random. about friendships. please
have the feeling. okay, im tired! byeee

i wont be posting that many, let me repeat it again. i wont be posting that many!!
i full with school stuffs, problems, depression ive faced, soccer training, birthdays
and moree but the most is my depression ive faced :[[ saddd but thanks to whom
who cheered me up aye:] but tetap ku maseyh sedih and hoping to sembuh asap
gggrrrr.. kayyyy best.

yesterday went out to me Shaf, studied/homework. It was raining. im not gonna
elaborate that much ouhkies. and probly reached home at 5pm+ :]

today, went school. Had Geography, English, MTL, Chem and Maths. Sheeshh =.=
lunch, DNT. Mr Teo was being random, taking each peoples temperature. D reason
i said "hoping to sembuh asap" was because it was devastated. im still having fever.
Which makes Mel wanna run away? LOL. Mr Teo was ummm "are u feeling okay?"
Me: "Yaa..errrr" continue with dnt. WTF makes me sick siaaa??! :( after school, :O
stayed in at canteen then went to BT with Sumi, Kila, Efah&Nisah. Ate fries.. errrrr
and........?? haiyaaa... lazy nak update uhh... Just wanna say this, in advanced.

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY, love :] // :[
08062009

for these few days have been soooooo depressing, very very. only the green letter
tells, apologised. sobbing. it was the hardest moment&trying to save it for the last.
haisshhhhhh...

So, as you guys wanna know, i wont be that active in this blog. will abandoned it for
a while. Okay love. Im just having problems that is needed to be settle and so on.Bt
i wont forget this blog:] untuk selamenye. so, my second blog will be neutral aye.Bt
before i 'closed down', im posting for the 'last' before im being so unactive. sobb!

Wednesday, didnt attend school as i was having a fever! :[ as well as Shaf who didnt
attend school too. lalalaaa.. Stayed at home, talk otp with Shaf. No Life. Ahahaaa..Bt
then, metup with her at night since i want her to accompany me to see a doc. Kayyy
Haishh.. didnt expect it was shocking. Still having a fever and wearing the mask. lol!
was given a two days mc bt i told Shaf, dun worry, im coming and den, wave byebye
to Shaf:] thanks Shaf for teman-ing. weee

Thursday, went to school. Takkan tak pergi sekolah kann. Tak pegi beh pegi training
heeee ;] But i went to school. And had to changed mtL class. Sheeshh.. So, i was..omg
that i totally opened my mouth. Tapi, tak semesra:( it was a tragic. Went home, pack
and metup with Shaf 5pm at Bedok Inter:] There, bought donuts and stuff. And took
854 to Hougang Stadium. Camwhored.Ben was at there too. Was watching us did our
training. Bahahaaa. Probly ends at 8.18pm. Cheyy.. Took a shower then and went off
Sheeeshhhhhhh.. Ben really took a video! kimakkk.. boleh mati sahh!! ok... wtv it is,
training was fun but gotto buckup, A LOT! woahh.. at least im being truthful. Went
home, cuci boot and all.. packup and sleep.OH, And talked to bie otp for a while.

Friday, nothing much. Went to eat with Shaf pat tempat biase. And i felt very sleepy
and very glum!!! sedih seyhhh about what had happend. i may be happy outside but
things didnt go the same way inside. Im sure Shaf knows this. Then went home and
sleep, wakeup, mum brought MCwings! yummyyyy. Kay byeeee. Will miss bloggy:[

i still love you, my only one.

Michael's Jackson Siblings


i felt sad, very very sad. cried in a sudden. weird, i know. but MJ left
this world forever and wont be coming back =[[ it was a tragic. it was
unbelievable. He was d King Of Pop! The moonwalk guy. Please, if u
have a heart, im sure u'll be sad. For me, age 50 was to young to go.
But maybe this is because god loves him, he took his life away. Sob
May he will always be happy up there.

Late Michael Jackson, The King of Pop
29 August 1958-25 June 2009



Jackson 5. With his brothers!!! Late Michael was wearing a
red shirt. Imagine, Five brothers, one had left, fading away
SADDDD!!! sobb

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

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