It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry
Alright, Ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burnt down
I'm stronger now
Alright, Ok
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrait a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear
(this song is for youuuu!!! i know u know.)

Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Had malay remedial. After that, went to skatepark with Kila&&Sumi
to watch Afa...............all skate. LOL. At 6pm, met up with mum since
ade parents meeting about Sarawak. Well, all the people who is going
Sarawak will need to do an injection. Pray Hard!!! Probly went home
at around 8.30pm.

SADDENING TWO MONTHS BREAKUP!!!
remember cin?

Today, 30 April 2009
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO ARIEL LOUIS!!
sorry if my spelling is wrong :) lol

Just now, wasnt in a mood. My butt keep moving. Had our Maths Test
back and i passed.. FuuHhhhhyOoooo!! nasib. So, nothing much. After
school, went to Geog remedial then home sweet home =.=

Its been almost one week. I remember last friday about what
Sumi&Kila plan but ended up, we are on the flowwww :)
kay best. And tmrw going to STUDY with Shafbby ;D next week
exam dah start uhseyhh!! Hoping to have fun while studying :)
Awwwhhh, not forgetting, i just felt sicked. Had flu and headache.
NOT SWINE FLU, YOU BITCH!! =.= sheessshhhh.. xD

***** SYAIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ko kekekkkk per tadi during fire drilling!!! haha
ko jek siyoLLL....... yang kene tinggal pat satu bilik biler ko ngan uat Chem
test. Alone in the room while kitaorang semua cabot gi field untuk assemble!
ahhahahahhahahha... ko TERtinggal!!! even cikgu terlupe ko pat dalam bilik
ngan uat Chem test ko. LAUGH OUT LOUD!!
nasebbb ko pandai... ko keluar jgk dari bilik itu den ko gi assemble tanpe
kitaorang bilang ko. Kalau tak, memang ko dah jadi Michael Jackson kedua!!
version hitam. hahahahhahahhaaa.. kenangan =DDD

IM FCUKING SHOCKED THAT
my prepaid expiry is on 19 JUNE!!! which is on my birthday!
i just topup today yknowww, kay lame!!! =DD

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret (Did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (Did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song


But you won't sing along
you've forgotten
About us

I was touched when i hear this song in my head after
i just woke up from my sleep and SOMEBODY msgg
me in a sudden. Kay best. And school was fine. Kila!!,
the letter kelakarrrr siyoLL! korang duer kekek uhh.
;DD

&
imisshim :(

I Wish you didnt love me
I wish youd make this easy
It was love that caught me
Now it's fear that keeps me with you
I want to be by your side
So I can close my eyes
To the growing emptiness inside that kills me
When I'm with you
You try to break me, Try to hate me
So you can fall out of love
You want to make me believe that I'm crazy
That I'm nothing without you

It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone

I feel you in my shadow
My heart feels cold and hollow
No matter where I run I see
Your eyes always follow me
You try to hold me
Try to own me
Keeping something that's not yours
You want to make me
Believe that I'm crazy
Make me think that you're the cure


Im currently having depression for these few days. Im not
feeling that good as i'm thinking too much. Just last 2 or 3
days ago, AKU putus cinta dengan Wan. Its me hu ask for,
not him :( Not to be bastard /whtsoevr, it wasnt the same.
I felt uncomfortable. I cant continue. Im sorry. More Info?
I wrote inside my diary[book] ALLLLLLLLL,, about what's
happening to my life. Its unbelievable. Im depressed. I'M
STILL thinking of hym. I cant' get him out of my mind all
day. I wrote inside my diary mostly was ALL about him.
Sape sape yang sedih or i hurt ur feelings, maaf.

** 3 more days to 2 months breakup :(
** 1 more week to their 1month anni
** 1 week and 2 days to MidYear Exam
** twenty six more days to Sarawak Trip

Sunday, 19th April 2009

Met up with Shafirah since i wanna give her the nike slipper :)
then slack for like 2-3hours? Ate roti prata, again.. hahhaaaaa
Took pictures but im lazy to upload here but i've upload at FS.
Around 4pm+, went off and headed to Tamp, alone. No Life eh
eheee.. bought stuffS at popular. Kiwekk, weather takleh angS!
hoho... its scorching hot yknowww.. ;D gahhh.. didnt get to see
Adeq Radhi play for his soccer match FULL at Springfield Sec
since i was in the bus and just had a glance look :(( But overall,
Singapore Sports School WON!! ;D yeahhh, congrats yaw! And
probly, went home at between 6-7pm.

Singapore Sports School VS Woodlands Willington anw :)
(Wont be elaborate about Monday and Tuesday, sorry)


Wednesday, 22nd April 2009

Went to school together with Shafirah. Meet up with her under
her block and off we go to school but, terserempak ngan Zeze :)
heeeeee... Ouhsss, no infocomm today so my planning was to go
Queensway SC to buy the pink nike slipper since Rozita told me
ADE ;DD gaahhh. Thanx bby. Went there, alone since nak cepat
pegi and baleq :) heheee... bcos i got plenty of hmwkS! OMFG!!
lol. Ku sungguh happyyyy, cos i get my wishes, like finally ;DDD
Pink NikEEe!!!! taknk buang mase, bought it straight away yaw
and probly reached home at 5pm? yeahhhh.. kay GO.


Thursday, 23rd April 2009

Nothing much but Maths Test will be postpone to next week due
unprint paper?kay lame. No assembly but plenty of malay hmwk.
tskkktskk.. After school, had Sarawak meeting. Gosshhhhh, Zeze
tak datang siyOLL, hahaa.. then im alone... lmao. Noob! Then my
shoe bag uat hal =.= , (Dayya, its not ur fault anw.. heee) After d
meeting, slack with Mel& the rest for the sake of 10min? Sooooo,
went home together with NisahChooo&IrahhhDeviLL. muahaha!
Went home, go out again to laminate somethings....& homeShome
HeyyyHoooOooo, TMRW SAPER NYE BIRTHDAY uhhhh??!!!!

WHATTTTTTTT??? Sayyy WHATTT??!!!!!!!!!
yeahhhhhhhhhh baybehhh, SHAKILA nyeee birthday uhseyhh!
gaaahhhhhhhh ;DDD
Cheyyyy, going FIFTEEN ehhh budakk tuhhh.. Fuhhh..

Problyyyyyy, yesterday went to ANGSANA&CITY SQUARE
only =.= Since there is not a lot of nike stuff at Jusco.. ggrr!

Nevertheless, woke up at FIVEam just to do my freaking
hair and makeup then at EIGHTam, burger............. [skip]

Kiweekkk, many people uhseyhh at the shopping centre,
(padahal tarq) LOL. There's like a few peoples in the SC.
But, me,mum&dad decided to Angsana to have our bkfst
at there. The food? oklaahhh.. but EX =.=
After eating, went shopping :) We nearly searched for the
Nike Slippers but none of the shops have PINK. They say
"That slipper is out of stock" FcUKkk, eh hellooo, hahhha
but ShafirahS black and red nike slipper aderr. TarQ Fair
But overall, bought perfume, nike shoebag and someones
birthday present :) gahhh.. her birthday is just next week
yknow [sceptical] .. Soo, before we go back to CitySquare,
wen to this one shop since mum wans to repair her watch
LoL and headed to this one rebonding shop with only cost
$50RM!!! for all length. Singapore is only $25SGD! Cheap
but it can last for 6months :) can lahh ehkk but mum say,
later next month we come back which will be on the 16th
May? yeahhh... EMO LONG HAIR!! gaaahhh.. mustmust



Hmmm, then headed back to City Square, round round
and finally, bought for Shafirah Nike Slipper, black&red
heeeee... Me? chickenn, im sad, DEPRESSION!! no size
for me... hahahhahaa.... funny uh.. but ended up, bought
Everlast =.= Quite niceeee... Got Discount!! heeee ;DDD
Love Love. Ermm, bought psp nye bag.... should be tats
all? ouhhhh, bro nye game then went to Mary Brown to
have a lunch at there and then, headed home.
=.= nyhahahhaha.. Quite fun larh but its just my post is
kindda boring! heh..

Okeyyy friends, its Saturday. I got 1hour left before i
go Johor :)
LMAO

But just wanna say, takecare friends!!
Gonna miss you guys [lame] hahahha
especially my bby, WAN!!! that cutee
boyfieeee ;D awwhhh

and probably tmrw will be goin to Adeq Radhi
nye soccer match at Springfield Sec at around
3pm? Yeahhh.. and will be shopping at Cotton
On tmrw since tmrw is 'Tampines Hangout' -.-
LAME!!!!!!! hahahhaa..

HAPPY THREE HUNDRED POSTS TO MY BLOG!
weeeeeeeeeeeeee~ lmao, hahhahaha..

Today is FRIDAY the 17th April :)
Had a splendid funnnnnnn with Efah, Shakila, Sumi, Natasha,
SitiHawa and Heikal ;DD ...... gaahhhh..... Probly, we all went
to Tampines[1], Tampines Mall and Century Square. We did
shopping at "More Than Words"

It was a tiring day but afterall i had a GREAT FUN. Hope my
friends too yawww. Have been msg-ing bby from morning till
now ;D NEVER LAST, lol! OMFG!!, COTTON ON SALE!!!!!!!
Gonna buy COMFIRM+CHOP, Sleeveless tee&a Pink Dress!
YaYyy! ;D Its blardy $5-$10... can u imagine? goshhh..

Soooo, went home with Sumi&Efah :) And probly reached
home at 5pm+++?? im not sure. Pictures with Sumi&Kila

one more post to go and HAPPY 300 POSTS TO MY BLOG!!
haahhhaa..quite a lot actually ;D gahhh.. [kembang lahh tu, lmao]

Long time since i last post. So yeahhh, for these few days,
my life is jumping around. Happy? mostly & i dun wanna
elaborate about monday bcos nothing much happends =)

Tuesday:
Chemistry was cancelled due to reasons and went home,
shower, changed and headed to Afghan to meet sister and
akak sedare, Fatin :) gawd, waiting for sister to straighten
her hair was seriously pissing my butt =.= sheesssshh. So,
it was 45min-1hr. Ouhh, coincidence, met up with Maggie
inside bus 18 ;DD lawlxx.. Went to Tamp1 to see whether
that nike pink slipper or whatsoever. SEMUA PINK yknw
gggrrrrr... but sad, tkde. But parents&me will be planning
to go Johor to find that blardy nike for me and Shaf and to
eat at there. Going to miss Wanbby uhseyhh :( and probly,
Fatin sleptO till tmrw and i slept damn early, seriously.
WANBBY,




Wednesday: First Day of YOG in school
Had infocomm at 4pm to 6pm. Was damn tired after i
got home ;D Msgmsg Wanbby&friends about this and
that especially Nadia, hahhaa..
Kila dearest, please do move on with your life no matter
what happends bcos why? we will always be there for u
to lend a shoulder to cry on. U helped me before so itsss
my turn to help u and her back like olden days kaes. I'll
persevere no matter what. What are friends for bbe. TC


(with kila dearest after infocomm)


(MEL)


Thursday: Second Day of YOG in school
Im sorryyyy Mel if my todayS attitude sucks kay. hmm
Soooo, we get our English Oral results. Gosh, i seriously
didnt expect to have a good results in my life. LOL, haha
It was 30/40 :) Thanxxxx yaaa teacher... heee.. Ya, my
maths tooooooo... gaahhhh.. 22/25 ;DD cheyyy. K, best
After assembly, had Sarawak meeting. I GET TO SLIP
with NAZIRAH!!!!!!!!!!!! YaYyy!! Happy Oiiii... tpi, nort
with Shafirah.. hmmmm.. nvm but we still go kan.. hope
to sit in the same place when in the aeroplane :)


(natural makeup)

HOLLA ;DD

Goshhh, yesterday was the mostttttt tiring day i had -.-
Cant imagine it but i totally cried, bahahha! Yesterday,
had 2.4km run. This tyme i didnt make it to be the 1st
girl lorh but most probly Asnita was the 1st ;D cheyyy!
haha.. Was beside Shafirah:) but ended up halfway my
right ribs started to cramp all of my right side. Thats
when its hard for me to catchup with her again but she
cheered me. Thankyou dearest but i just cant its effing
painful than i ever thought of. Stopped for a while, nvm
Turka was behind me and i told her to "GO TURKA" n
and she ran since the ending point is just few m.S away
;DD gahhh.. Yeahh, i pass but 32th overall =.= but wtv
it is, IT HAS ALREADY END ;)

After that, rushed to Bedok Intr to meet up with parents
and auntie with Mel but halfway separate lurhh.. Headed
to Lavender to take my new passport and to beach road
to have my my my breakfast. LOL, saw my one of my
junior from Pyss =)) LOL.. kekek uhseyhh.. Kay, lame.
errr, walk around arab street and went to Tampines 1 for
a while. Trade in my gameboysp advance which i get only
$$$20? hahhaa.. can larh.. I wanna buy Brazilliano Praia!
its freaking 50bucksss.. gaaahh.. Imma in love with black
and white seyhh.. weeeeeee.. hope to get it soon.

U see, i love Wan [not PYSS!] but im still confused. Im
not tooo sure what is my answer =((( He is still waiting
But, what am i going to do?? Gawdddd. Help Me.

Hello Worlds.

As im typing this now, i started not feeling well after i get back home.
Started to cough and had a very backcramp, sobsob!! It seems about
the wheather nowadays.

Tuesday:
Was needed to attend chemistry remedial with Miss Huda,
but NO i didn't end up since im fcuking scared if there's no
time for me to go home and changed since 6.45pm me&bfS
are going to OKTO LIVE! Without wasting time, left Nisah
alone, gawd! (sorry bby) , went home and happy larh cos i
get to see sister before she goes to couszx house for sleepO
;DD LOL..kiweekkk, after we reached there, got this cutee
boy uhseyh.. wearing a gray topman shirt!! *melts, nyahah
kay lmoaa. Probly, reached homeShome at 11pm =) gahhh.
It was a long day though& i didnt regret to go OKTOLIVE
with Shafirah,Nadia,Natasha,Lina,Fadzli,Felix& more =DD
HAD A WONDERFUL TIME WITH THEM[!] *wink

Wednesday:
Went off early since im gonna meet up with Shafirahbby :))
So, metup with Shaf under her block& went to ShengShiong
and bought foolscapS&redbullS, gagagga.. then went to schl.
Mel? went home. GOSHH, im loving with this hotdog which
Shaf recommend ;D thanx ayee bbe. Skool was splendid fun
esp PE, Physics& Circle Time. PE? run 5 rounds since Mr.L
asked to. Run lahh... Amakkk, Shaf first sioL, haha followed
by me then Siti. After running, played badminton, bahahha.
CONVERSATION speaks:
"Hello Sexy Siti, Im Funny Fidi" ;DDDD LOLOLOL! but wtv
it is, thank you Shaza for ur touching comment about me =D
awwwhhh.. "Im sad because there's Info.c today" (roll eyes)
Was late and cam biasa, kene marah.. sheesshhh..

Thursday:
Nothing much happend but had Geog Quiz& Maths Test :)
Im not satisfied with my Graph =.= nvm.. Just hoping that
i will pass*praying. And during assembly, Russel Lee came
=) nyahaha. Then came two MEETINGS. About YOG2010
and Sarawak Trip.

YOG2010: Awwhhh, thankyou Mr Wee& Mr Chang for
commenting 312 for being the BEST CLASS ;D Woahh!
hahhaaa.. Shocking to say, 312 will be the class who will
be 'taking care' of two different countries. Forgotten the
country name. HOHO! YAY larh!... haha.. bcos 312 only
knows this *winkwink. K, move on.
SARAWAK: Ouhsss, received the schedule already about
what we going to do for the whole five days ;D HOHO&
will be lastly departured from C.A at 8.45pm :( hmmm

okieeee, then................................went home with Efah ;D

JUST NOW, had school. DURHHHHHH, gagagaggagagagag...

i think uhhh, Nisah pun fedup already about my RS ;D haha
yeah, me too. I should stop lah ehk. So, gave my report book
back to Mrs Toh withhhh a wideeeeeee smileeeeeee =))) LOL
First, had urmmm Maths ;D im blardy scared.. sheeshhhhh
Then English. Mr Hakim was not around but we had our test.
No comment. And came RECESS, idk but today i feel sooo
farking energetic talking to my friends. Tak nangis, tak ape.
Rilekkxxxx jekk =D mesti happy go lucky kan?! weeeeeee~
SINGLE, tarQ mati larh!!! FRIENDS are still there for me.
They are not HYPOCRITE, UNLIKE YOU!!! awwwhhhhhhhh
tooo bad larh.. just desperate.. hmmm.. K, wtv. Had MTL and
Physics. Physics? Mr Liew was not around but Mr Rajoo was
d relief teacher & was given a worksheet to complete it.. And,
Had our birthday celebration at the Canteen =DD gaaahhhh..
March&April birthday peeps ;D Cheyy, pictures? Soon when
im not busy kaes? So, this is what i say to Mel

Me:"MeL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, i cant wait for our birthday celebration!
hope to get the nicest cake seyhhh"
(in between of May&June)

MeL: "Yeaahhhhh..."

LOL. i knowits blardy lame -.- okie, BYE

Probly, yesterday ended up hangout with Louie, Rozita, Aynee, Wafiq& Syafiq
at Vivo =) Ouhhss, met up with Rozita, Aynee, Wafiq& Syafiq halfway, around
5.30pm? yeahh...

Firstly:
Went to Lavender with mum, dad, dearest grandma& my auntie
to make mine& my auntieS passport. Gahhh, bought this cuteee
disney princess passport cover XDXD LOL!! Woahhh, thought it
would take 30min to complete all but ended up only 15min! =DD
Then, headed to Geylang, have breakfast at there and probbly, i
bought Citra's lotion ;)) cheyyyy.. and2, i left first since i have to
meet Mel to take my bag(online) lalallala.. Reached tamp, went
to have a change. FCUK bowdohh, my contact lens expire SiYoL
=((( takpe.. then, meet up with MEL, 15min later, went to MaC
and take my bag and went off to library, did my homework. XD
Stepp jekk.. gagaga... Zul called suddenly.. kay, angkat.. At 1pm,
went back to Tm, alone this time. TKDE LYFE. Bought hp stripe
Errr, then.. Ouh, and headed to Vivo, met with Louie&Paula=DD
YeaHhhhhh... its them yaww.. CAMWHORE[!] ;D . Then, Paula
had to go =(( sobxxx.. so, left me and Louie.. Chit Chat here and
there, went Mac. heeee and lepak till 5.30pm? and came Aynee,
Rozita, Wafiq and Syafiq =) CHOYYY, mcm paham jek taw narq
makan pat Ramen Ten, LOL!but ended up eating at Banquet ex
for me and Louie.. Perut FULL uh. Currently, msging Farah &&
Shahrul(exku) nyahaha.. After eating, went to lepak again. Saw
Amirul, Salleh and another friend .. hmmm.. TaRQpe, Aku Hide.
At 7.30pm, i gotto go home. Wanna stop going home late liaooo...
wave d last goodbye den =) *haha, wave mcm nak gi luar negeri
gitu... bahahha... andddd, saw sis and jupf =.=

TMRW is the 6TH!

OUH, AKU MEMANG MACAM BUDAK KENTAL UHH.. =.=
seperti ko ckp kann, jupf... no wonder 'he' left me kann..///

AND ITS CURRENTLY RAINING HEAVILY!!
ouh dearest acin, hope that ur just doing fine... hmmmmm..
have a happpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lyfeeeeeeeee!
may u still remember those memories.. and i cant just depend
on you, cin... i gotto go my own way...

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me

Today, nothing much happend. Just had a new Social Studies
teacher, Miss Heng. Idk what to say about her lurhhh asalkan
pass Social Studies sudah =DDD Today wasn't the mood i was
like looking for butbut whatever it is, wen home together with
Sahul, cheyyy... future cousin in law? lawlsxz idk lahh.. Ouhh,
hope to get the neon pink bag tmrw which me& Mel bought it
yesterday. Its fcuking 25bucks$$ , sheeshhh.. But Mel bought
yellow color. Me? Pink larhh.. muahahhah, i cant wait. So, my
Billabong bag? i would use it for my Sarawak trip& etc. Thats
what i say to mum what im going to do with my Billabong bag.
=DDD And probly, tmrw im going out with mum, dad andand
dearest nenek to Lavender since i nid to make a new passport
becos Mr Rizal/Mr Glynn is going to book the flights today bt
so far, i just give the form and thanksss for understanding me
tat i need to make that blardy passport! lalalala..GAWD! i nid
to wake up damnnn early at 7.30am just to go there?!!! haha..
If it finish at 11.30am, will be going somewhere far for a while
then at 2.30, will be meeting someone SPECIAL yaww!!! gah

kay, bye

I never thought that we would break up for the better
Should've never made the promises to each other
So many things I should've said that you didn't know
Coming in from a past with a heavy load

But I knew that you were a good man
Give me love, you were faithful - It showed on my hand
I know there are questions in your mind you don't understand
Through the words of this song, I wanna answer them

Honesty (Check)
Conversation (Check)
A shoulder I can lean on anytime I'm feeling stressed (Check)
Good loving (Yes)
The perfect soldier (Yes)
Was about to say "I do," when I know it wasn't meant
So I

Search in my mind, trying to figure it out
And thought I was happy but I'm having some doubts
Think I found the answer and I know I must confess
I'm still in love with my ex
And I wasn't ready when I said that I loved you
And in my heart, I know that I gotta tell you
I shouldn't have gone from a situation to the next
I'm still in love with my ex
saying sorry to me wont be soooo easy...

FRIENDS,

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

Republic Polytechnic
Business Information Systems

facebook:shawnna_rox@hotmail.com

I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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