Hello Earth. Sorry didn't post for these few days. Had prelims on Thurs and Friday. Thats the reason i don't have the time to post except for stalking :D chey fake. Anw, i managed to take the next step to continue with my life. Its natural in life and i just have to leave it with a smile :D ITS OKAY ITS ALRIGHT. Please, i didn't cry. Even if i were to cry, its because i yawn too much because of sleeping late till 12 just to study SS. It was like a last minute. Everybody was like eh fcuk lahh, why teacher tell last minute to study the chaps for SS, noob right? -.- i spend my days with sis at her bf's crib till 7 plus and BREAK FAST together. Ate murtabak. Alamakkdeyhhhh, enak banget ^^ yeah, his maid bought for us :) thanks.

After that, me and sis followed his mum to Bedok Reservoir to tailor the Raya dress. Green this year. Huahaha!! Last year red, amacam? lol. But i know, i won't really get to enjoy this year =(( Idk if sis is going Surabaya before raya. I feel like, i almost cried when she "we can like webcam when im at Surabaya" That was sad. Imagine every single year, early in the morning and the first day of raya i always wake my sis up and suddenly this year i wont do the same thing like i did. The room will be empty ='( if she were to go, 13 days without crapness in the house. Ohhh mann.. This is sad. First day of raya without her is like BORING. Every year, for the first day will always be the same houses. Takkan go raya like i alone with parents. Boringg pahhh..


It seems that ive moved on that fast. Is that supposed to be good or bad ? -.- Its good :) for me. haha. Im happy!! The only thing you need is, HEADS UP and move on. Someone msg me this and it really means a lot to me.

"A strong person knows how to keep their life in order.Even with tears in their eyes,they still manage to say IM OK with a smile"

oh, you still read my blog?? i thought you didn't even bother to read it , sheesh -.- so, my say. thank you.

i will never know that it refers to someone because some can sense it.

What if someone that used to love you suddenly hated you fcuking bad after what had happend between you and him? What do you feel? Sad? Angry? Heartless?

I'll probably say that im both sad and angry at the same time. I didn't expect that this would happen but its the decision that i have to take and fight for it. You see, you may see all the bull shits status about you at my FB well, actually, i don't have the freaking guts to do that but you make me say stupid things bout you! maybe that's the way that im going to forget all the things had happen. I HATE YOU! Im being so freakish mean because this time, i can't let any guys step onto my head AGAIN and NEVER. Too much. Oh no, I DONT MISS YOU BUT im showing you my hatred feelings to you. The pain that i'll go through is the pain that you'll go through.

You talk shit things about me, i talk shit things about you too okay? Being unbias right? Because if this is what you want, i threw it back. Feel the heat around you. I know, one day, i'll get dull fighting with you and so on. I can forget you, POSSIBLE but i will never forget what had happen in the past. Even if you wanted to seek for forgiveness, i'll say it now. I forgive you and pretend that you don't know me from the very first beginning.

I'LL PRETEND THAT YOU DON'T EXIST.

"i don't have the guts to say these but you make me want to." ive been in a long love story and i know how it feels. feel so angryyyyy!!! but i know, one day i'll forget about you. you're no longer my emmett. and im not rosalie no more. this hatred feelings will fade IF YOU leave me alone.

I don't mind if you're in a process with another girl. What i give a damn? Its your life and i can have a new replacement too. But not this fast. I just have to face the fact that we're not fated to be together. So, accept it.

saw that post i put at FB?

"What would you eventually say when someone misses you when you know that you both are not in a good terms? Tell me friends."

its not that i miss you but im curious to know from different peoples.

Hello :]

Ok, like omg -.- Dad is currently fixing the light thingy at my bathroom and its freaking glass. So unsafe. What if the thing fell onto someone's head? Oh shit, Crack yknoww -.- Well, touch wood. Huhu. I still haven't shower yet. Will be going out later with parents again to Expo then to Tampines. Yesterday went to Sim Lim to sent my lappy but then tak jadi. My lappy doesn't even have virus lah. After we had our lunch, went to Bugis to buy the alibaba pants and off home sweet home.


I have a very bad eye bag ='( feel so gloomy. Okay, chill. Must put cucumber every night before sleep :) I had a weird waking up last 2 days. It was scary. Have you guys felt that you guys woke up in a sudden in a fast motion middle in the night? Like as if you're having a bad dream? I did. There's no dream but it was so weird waking up like that. Sis was like "Whats wrong with you?" Ah, anw, skip about that. Celebrated mum's bday on last Thursday. Me and sis went to make a cake at TampOne after i reached home from school. It was a long day for me. And then, KFC , pizza and Golden pillow arrived. Yummyyyy!!

Prelims next week. And Thursday will be SS and English. Friday will be Malay, huhu. And after a month, Prelims will start. Okay, i gotto buck up. I have to achieve what i wanted. Must get at least 19points for Prelims. Expection. And better for N'Level.



What girls expect to find what type of guy. For me, the guy has to be mature. Not too serious and not too playful :) Just an average type of guy. I don't really like guys who don't acumen the girl's feeling. Well, to do this thing easy, We have to understand each other. The guy gotto to be sincere , manage to express the care and love. A good karma will come back :) I dislike guys who are acting to be soooo damn indulgent -.- i found it disgusting. Okay, i love lovely guys :D No violence but LOVE&CARE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM :D Ur 48 now, haha

Yooo supp peoples :D cheyy ^^ Okay, so today is mum's birthday and now,
waiting for KFC, Golden Pillow to arrive, YUMMYYYYY!!! Arhhhhhhhhh!!
shouldn't talk about food now as im fasting, for the past 3days :D woahhhh.
Tmrw im off, YAYYY FOOD! i wanna eat you! heh heh ^^ I think i'll be vv
skinny because you see, im just lazy to have my break in the morning sooo,
i have to wait till 7.15 =') hehe. HUNGRYYY yknowww..

Okay, i got mood swing yesterday like WTH -.- i hate when it comes like
that, it ruins my mood and things will become worst. Oh brother, somehow
i wish ur here and cheer me up ='( ur the one who can make me happy&
give me a lot of advice. One sentence keeps lingering around me was........
"Just leave it with a smile" remembering it will always motivate myself to
move on and smile because you see, don't waste our time on heart break
news or whatsoever :) time is precious and you need it to enjoy life more
than being depress, cry over something that is not worth it. So, wait for
what??? Puttttt ur smile on your face and say it to urself that i'll be happy
no matter what happends :) cos i did that everytime whem im sad..........

Five Seven Zero Posts, Hello :D

What more can i say right? This blog is somehow alive and dead at certain
times :) Oh, its Sunday and tomorrow there's school. Like YAY?? Argghhh.
Everyday there will be PAL test. Believe it. Its for the fcvking 30minutes :(
Anyway, test can be important for the past 2terms but now, the tests won't
be counted in the Prelim and N'Level right? -.- but still, im going to study..
Yakkkkedeebushhh!!!

There's PE tmrw. Oh please, no running. My stamina scuks i tell youuuu!!
At least play something interesting.. like softball :D awesome! Speaking of
physical, football's final , this is scary. If Spain were to lose, i tell you,u the
peoples who supported Spain will feel moroseful!! confirm will break down.

And yeah, i miss someone. Like millions of time. I keep....... dreaming about
him. Unbelievable yeah? but true. Ok, maybe dreams are fantasy but it can
be reality.. Like a dejavu yknow. HAISHHHH.. Im still waiting for his reply.
If he didn't reply, then ..... its okay =')

Ooooooohhh, im sick ='( like again. My fever came back and i realised that just right
after i just stepped out from my house. I ignore my flu but i should be more concern
about that. My body started aching starting from the legs. So feeble. And then to my
head. Its crushing my brain. Oh headache. But i ignore that and continue with my
studies. Its been 6 freaking days of having fever. Well, yesterday was alright when
im in school. Managed to survive till 8pm. Were having night study. Pictures will be
uploaded soon. Anyways, yeahh, there it goes, my fever came back -.- how cool. Oh!
saw Fykaaaaa Castro at library just now :DD Pretty her.





Get well soon to Dolts and others who are sick :) and go SPAINNNN!!! :D
i ♥ mohammad aidil bin nordin :)

Its 0839 and im not in school. I paitao from school, ssshhhhh , hehe.. Wahh, crazy uyh
i want to do that? Sorry, no time. If you were to paitaooo, might as well don't come to
school and sleep at home right? -.- LOL. Anyways, i didn't attend school today because
of my fever ='(( i miss my bbygirls and dopeboys in school. As you can see that i have
change the description thingy right? Shaza invented it :) TOUCHING~ Thank her for
that :)

Ohhman, yesterday N'level oral was alright :) im not confident. But it was awesome!
i didnt expect that it would appear that picture. Thank God.

I had the sweetest dream that night which i still can remember after i woke up :D
I dream about something amazing.ILOVEIT :D

And omggggggggggggggggggggggggg, my cutie cat steals my ikan bilis from my dish
-.- HAIYAAAAA but, cute :D

So, its 7.20pm and im wayyy getting more sicker. Why today??? Why can't it be after
Wednesday? Tmrw's my N'level oral, oohhhmann... I hope i won't lose my voice after
i wake up tmrw. Omg, praying hard!

I cried today, really bad. Friends was like, ehhh, kau ok takkk??" im fine but some
trauma things. Flashback during primary school nerd days. How i really suffocate..
I just wish that when im in secondary, i jus wan to be happy because let us all leave
our secondary life with tears of joy. And i hopee to stay another year with beloved
friends. Now im fine.

School ended at 4pm. And stayed at the canteen till 5pm? Crap with Dolts about Afa's
joke -.- its killing the stomach. So, walked with NeneKila & board a bus to meet mum
last minute. Followed mum and to guardian to buy this fever thing. I can't eat medi :(
mum scared that i'll feel dizzy the next day. Lagi2 tmrw N'Level oral -.- what do you
expect?? Im currently fighting my fever. I cannot be weak, seriously. Wanted to take
pink form today but think twice, i gotto save it and be strong. I made it but its soooo
damn pain. Fever, Flu, Cramps, etc. I really really pray to God for at least save a day
for me tmrw to be strong. I needed that most.

And now, im posting. I miss someone but when i received a message, well, it was right
after i cried, tears of joy. He made me happy, my emmett :) how i really really miss
him a lot. I wish we could talk. I wish we could hangout someday. Well, that's all have
to come later ='( IMISSYOU alot.

when i woke up this morning, i can feel the cramp , sad much. And then, i keep
sneezing like no other days till now and during tuition. how irritating is that. Well,
even Shafirah is sick now so am i -.- Get well soon& Thanks for the wishes yoo:)
At least someone cares. When i first took my temp, it was alright but then, after i
took it again after my shower, it was 37.8degree. I don't wish to know whats my
temp now -.- ISH, why am i sick at the wrong time?????

Im stubborn so before going tuition, i went to Bedok Inter and bought chocolates
and a drink for myself. Hehe. I can't survive without eating it :) and mum showed
me ferrero rocher after i got back home -.- /how glum is that. But she didn't give
me the choc, alamak! Kay lorh, i dun mind :]




ok, why am i feeling so freaking awkward here?????????????????????
i wish we can talk ='(

Forgiveness and Love :)




I got nothing to say actually but yeah, tomorrow will be N'Level Oral, omfgosh.
Good Luck peoples, huhu. I hope i am not nervous. Okay, today is Monday and
i got tuition later at 4.30pm with Hawa. Homework haven't do, alamak! Tsktsk

Yo, im back :D Its Friday and i love the weather despite hating the subjects for
today. It was such a very very long day for me. I went home almost at seven in
the evening. Was shocked to see sister at home. Usually, i don't get to see her..
Yeah, like that.

Uh, back. Been going home late. School ends at 4pm but, i decided to go home
at 6pm due to my dnt. I'm left with 15% to finish. Praying hard. Fasted for three
days this week. Prelim oral was like yesterday. I think i messed up a lot. I was
nervous, what do you expect? Haiya. Reading was alright but conversation sux!!
Haha. Okay, im so watching Eclipse tmrw with Hawa and Heikal. Tickets, don't
finish first. I need 3! Omg. And in the centre.

Okay, then after that, i'm going somewhere in the central till 9pm -.- Gundsssss
What should i wear tmrw uh? Alamakkk...


I must stop here now. Imy&ILy adil =')

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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