CONGRATULATION SINGAPORE::YOUNG LIONS!! :D

Its okay if they got bronze for the Finals, we are still proud of them because bronze is something. They are still a winner inside their heart :) I love it when they posed after the 3rd goal. Laughed out loud. Oh, i got scolded from my dad because i was still watching the match during the break fast. Dad was like "Cepat lahh!! Bola Bola Bola -.-" And i was like, sheesh.. Like hello, your daughter USED to play football too kan? Alamak. Then mum said "Hmm, alahh, takpelah, go depan ngok" I smiled and i bring along my food to the living room. They scored 4-1 :D HAPPY FOR THEM!!!

Okay, anw, i did miss playing soccer, to be TRUTHFUL. My boot will be abandoned for, idk how many years. That boot was a gift from my dad on my birthday. That was the green light that they gave me the chance to join the FC. Awww, but that was like a year ago. Starting a new life.

"All i can hear is raindrops falling onto the rooftop"
Its raining for these few days. Bbbbrrrrr, its cold in here. Well, today was my half day. I went home since i had a huge headache and my eyes were swollen. Ryan was like "Are you sure you can go back home alone?" (curious) I said i'll be fine. I head home with my weak body and slept with my uniform on. Sister was still sleeping at that time. I slept till 5pm and studied Geography. I need to do something before i get emotionally depressed.


"I thought that from this heartache i could escape... "
Its killing me and i have to be strong. My eyes is like a 5kg eye bag. Damn it. But i felt so moroseful. Everyone was staring when i got into the bus. Who cares who cares. Yeah, it looks ugly with my swollen eyes. Five teachers came to me and ask if i'm alright or not. Of course, i thank them and friends for their concern especially my personal fitness teacher. She knew that i was having tension? Prelims next week. Have to ease my mind.



And God knows I ain't perfect, tell me who in the world is?
All I know is that I'm searching for somebody to love me with these flaws

Sorry adeq Radhi if i im not there to support you when you are playing for your YOG football. I hope you know that i am dying to go there and support you. Such a useless sister am i to you. Its true that we are not real blood siblings but i treat you like my own brother. I have known you for about 4years. I still remember when you were still taking your PSLE while i am still a nerd during my new Secondary One life. I said to you that i preferred you to be my lil brother eventhough you are much more taller than me. It doesn't matter because is the friendship&love that counts =') How grateful am i to have you as my brother. Oh i wish we could break fast again like we used to last year. We had 1000000 times of fun and crapness. We were sooo hungry at that time. I still remember the first time we met, Butterflies "IS THAT MY ADEQ?" You came to watch my football match last year at night. You sacrificed and i sacrificed mine too, to watch your football match 2 years ago and just recently, i came to your training at Bedok. but unfortunately, there's no prove for me that i'm your blood sister =( even i argued with the noob uncle, i tried to lie but i can't. Outside, i'm so damn angry but deep inside, i'm crying like hell that i couldn't get to see you before your YOG starts. Eventhough i didn't get into, but at least i get to see you from where i was standing. I would just blow you a kiss and goodluck before i go. This is soo moroseful =(

But adeq, wtv it is, i promise to try my best to go for your finals even if it is raining, I would just sit there and watch. I've told my mum to purchase the tickets. Sanggupku pergi sorang tanpa kawan. For my adeq, anything :') my prayers on you guys.

Its Saturday. I don't know if i should go out or not. I feel so restless. Weeps. I feel like crying so that i can release my despaired feelings but i know deep inside, i am crying. Maybe i should take a stroll at Bedok Reservoir Park, alone. It looks like PATHETIC but it's the best way.

Now i am listening to Monster by Lady Gaga, a favourite music for this month. Well, speaking of my sadness, someone is going to turn sixteen tmrw :) I feel happy for her :D

I feel so weak.. i cannot believe that my fever is coming back =( well, i just cured 2 weeks ago and now, its coming back again . How sad. Had cough, flu and my left hand is weak. Typing this , im just using my right hand and a lil bit of my left hand. Gosh, please make me feel better :( i feel like crying when i get to know that my fever is coming back, sobb sobb =( my voice changed due to the flu -.- eyes are like swollen, as if i got beaten up by a group of gangsters. Ohman, i feel like closing my eyes and sleep and wake up later. I wanna watch adeq's training at Bedok, later at night. I miss him a lot.




Well, he just haven't realised yet that he's the one that i have been thinking of.

This is what i do when boredom :] just doing what girls do, you know. Web cammy alone in the night. Okay, i am very hungry eventhough i've ate Maggie Mee and Yong Tau Foo .. Hehe :DD fatty ain't i but please, i have to gain like 10kg? Its just that, i realised that last time, i used to be a lil bit chubby. But now, im kindda losing my chubbyness but gaining in weight? Ohman, what is that suppose to mean anyway. I WANNA GROW 1.6m can? Sobb sobb.

Oh, i got a date with someone tmrw. Im nervous, huhu. This is my first time, eating at a special place with a special friend of mine O-O okay, pray hard.

Year 2010 and Year 2009. Sobb sobb. Now i realised that i miss year 2009 ='( On behalf of that, i miss the outings. This year is such a cramp year -.- this problem, that problem. Wonder when will it ever end. I got this feeling like i want to bang my head on the mirror and it cracks. Got to say that this is life, how pathetic can this be. Yawn people yawn!

Oh, tmrw is National Day Celeb. Same thing happend. I don't wish to come but i have to. Im kindda hot headed for this few months. I can be veryyyy mean and better watch your mouth people. *Roll eyes* sheesh. Im gonna throw a mirror at your face and let it reflect your own self. Bare the pain that im going to say to you. Don't be overbearing please for god sake. Save me lahh

NEW ADMIRER HUH? ^^ , CONGRATULATION -.- oh wait, WHAT DO I EVEN CARE :)

Its Tuesday and tmrw will be Wednesday :) Oh, and there's Math tmrw :( I just hope to pass the test that was given last two days. Please, i am praying so hard that i'll pass my Malay Prelim. Teacher was like "There's two failures :(" i looked at Kila, Kila looked at me, our heart was trembling. Dying to know who failed. Please, i will feel kecewa if i were to fail my malay. Likeee hello! my own language in everyday lives. DIE SEYH!! huhu. Well, all the best *crying* Just now, Shaza's, Junior and Edwin performance was THE BESTTT!! haha

Speaking of Monday, played rugby against 411, mixture of 412 and 411. It was AWESOMEEEE!! eventhough the grass was freakish slippery -.- and some more, im fasting on that day and i made up my mind to run 2 rounds together with my friends. My energy reduces like shyt eh. Touch rugby was fun. People keep falling, HAHA. Include me :) i slip then fall and TOUCHDOWN!!! woah, nice spot where i fell, sheesh -.- My shorts were extremely dirty, I TELL YOU. Huahaha..

Oh ya, this Friday is a half day. NATIONAL DAY CELEB. And im gonna have a date with bestfriend on Saturday :) WOOHOOOOOOO. Monday and Tuesday holiday and i don't
think im going out as Adeq Radhi going back to his village =( i won't be going to watch the
fireworks this year =( sobb. "Confirm kau gi ngok fireworks this year" "Oh, taklah, this year tak gi, ngok pat tv sudah :(" "Wahh, first time kau tak gi ngok fireworks?? , Asal? DIER tak ade?" "DIERR??? -.- haha, NOOOO!" and blablabla...

my prelims results is the one that reflects how did i do for all the subs.
i wanna improve please :(

Noor Firdiana/Fidi. Eighteen.Attach to Darwisy♥

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I'm not perfect.I don't ask for much
All I need is my lovable people to be around me
Oh yes, my bf =) always be.


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