@ Friday, February 20, 2009

Farewell my 1year, 1month and 14days.

I'll love you and I'll wait for you as long as u want me too.

06 December 2007-20 February 2009

i feel like im sicked. I didnt had my lunch and dinner for almost
one day -.- Eversince we are not together, I feel like i dun exist
in the world!!!! I hope he'll see my cry tmrw when i get to meet
him. Its crumbling badly. I need Yassin by my side all day :((((

I still could not find the peace in my heart that I yearn for. Memories of the
past keep haunting me, especially during times when our love meant the most.
I see memories of us together in every little thing that I come across. Birthdays,
anniversaries, holidays, places, couples holding hands, lovers whispering sweet
nothings to and fro, are just some of the events that evoke strong feelings of
deja vu in me.

I will never forget nor will I be able to fully let go of these bittersweet memories.
It will always occupy a special place in my life. I am not angry with him, just
disappointed and sad. Meantime, I am always putting on a mask of happiness in
front of friends and family, so much so that I feel tired and pretentious. I still hurt
inside, but much less now than before, and I hope to learn to love & be loved again.