Saturday, July 11, 2009 ♥
@ Saturday, July 11, 2009
YESTERDAY/TODAY
i gotto fight this feelings of mine. im neutral. im strong yet im not. but yesterday was
unbelievable as i'm not aware who the heaven am i and friends are. weirdoo.. When i
talked, i felt like it wasnt me at all bt i could hear you guys talking to me. It was very
hard to fight it. it was me, against the another world. maybe some know what i mean
:0 im sorry friends for causing you guys trouble:(( because of me, you guys didnt get
to celebrate Mrs Toh Birthday. Sob. I was glum too.. I didnt expect that tis shagreen
in a sudden. WEAKK&fainted. Im not gonna elaborate more but to my friends whom
helped me, includes SHAFIRAH, MEL, SITI, NATASHA&TEACHERS,
i need time to set my life at ease:) .. will be going somewhere that is desolate and will
start to go counselling, wtv it is. I need someone to guide me, a guidance. And maybe
im changing school since mum has already asked me.mayb. Mum felt commiseration
towards me after what have done yesterday. im full with tension & depression. And i
was nearly admitted to the hospital :( awwhh.. Mrs Toh wanna sent me to hospital but
mum said, nvm bcos she's scared that i might get more ill. take blood here and there.
haiisshhh. memang takdirku mcm gini. co baan. and i miss my friends. TRAGIC
